It's mine

One year .. =))

2011-11-25T18:10:00.001+08:00

So. Yesterday was officially a year for both of us. Bii cracked his brain to plan a surprise celebration. I Did planned something too. But well. It some sort of clash with his planning. Without photos. I cant tell much. But yea.. Memorable.. =))

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Once

2011-11-21T23:55:00.001+08:00

You once. Was my motivation for everything.

Once. I wanted to dress neatly. Just To give u good impression.

Once. I wanted to enlarge my brain memory. Remember every single moment i Can.

Once. I woke up early in the morning. Just to spend every moment with u.

Once. You were the reason that i hang a silly smile all day.

Once. Your message bright up my whole day.

Once.... You were always patient when im uneasy.

Once... You held my hand very tight till i complaint pain.

Once... You hug me till i can barely breath.

Once... You swear you never let go of me no matter what.

Once... You say i was the meaning of your life.

Once... I was a need for u..

Once........ You were totally mine.. Totally into me..

Once...

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亲爱的

2011-11-21T01:35:00.001+08:00

亲爱的

我想听见的。不是你的祝福。

不是你的感激。不是你的述说。

不是愿不愿意

只需要.一句。继续陪我。好吗。

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Motivations

2011-07-26T01:29:00.000+08:00

I seriously need some motivations. I got no consistency in studies. damn it. i need courage and a stiff reason for me to go on. i'm slowing down. my things are yet to be organized and solve. every thing of mine is hanging in the middle of no where. midterms are extremely late than usual. school shifting and loan craps. government stuffs are just troublesome. I have to make sure everything i filled in the blanks are correct. if not. there goes another 5 bucks. =(( i can eat 2 sandwiches for that . =((

Aww.. when can i get through all these craps. I wanna start new school a~ =((

Mixed up

2011-05-26T15:06:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since the last update. yea. life was a piece of mess. everything is hanging right in the middle of nowhere. Failed 2 subjects in the last sem. made me having an extra semester here. which means my next july intake will be extremely risky. so yea. a piece of mess.

Minds are not in sequence. Its seriously random now. thinking of these in this moment and its another story on the next. i need a guiding light. lead me through these mist that makes me uneasy. i'm not settled down. i don't know how long will these mist will wander. i seemed to be scattered into piece. lost interest in most of the things. less enthusiastic towards life.

but hey.. it doesn't mean i'm going to suicide kays? maybe its just a lost of motivations. self motivation.

gotta find a point. a reason to motivate myself to go on. go on with everything. when i'm feel like giving up. =))

Future... who knows? its an unknown. so when there is unknown. there is fear.

I'll be just fine. In a short moment. =))

=)

2011-04-17T18:36:00.002+08:00

原谅我

2011-04-12T10:19:00.000+08:00

I want

2011-04-04T22:28:00.002+08:00

Final final final..

A seriously screwed internal mark might motivate me.. =(

Yea.. i screwed my calculus. and if not mistaken. physic too. Aww.. i just hate calculations. =((

Did you actually tried wandering around just to find something to feed your stomach and accidently found some nice place. yea. I just love this kind of surprise. =))

and hey! a recommended song. 'Handle with care'. yea. the singer may not as nice looking as Sam Tsui. but hey. we're talking bout his voice. and guitar as background =) <3

Eat some cucumber. hee. =) its his erm. quote? healthy aite?

You got my heart on a leash
and I just cannot speak
I won't go anywhere
just handle with care
My heart
Please don't break it
No, please don't break it

=) <3

普通朋友

2011-04-03T22:26:00.002+08:00

等待

我随时随地在等待

做你感情上的依赖

我没任何疑问

这是爱

我猜

你早就想要说明白

我觉得自己好失败

从天堂掉落到深渊

多无奈

我愿意改变重新再来一遍

我无法只是普通朋友

感情已那么深

叫我怎么能放手

但你说

I only wanna be your friend

做个朋友

我在你心中只是 just a friend

不是情人我感激你对我这样的坦白

但我给你的爱暂时收不回来

不能只是 be your friend
I just can't be your friend

No 我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友

Watched a movie from Louis Koo and Daniel Wu again today. 'Triple Tap' . I almost forgot they cooperate before ' Don't go breaking my heart' . I watched ' Triple Tap' on my last year birthday. a so-called officially legally watching a no under 18 movie.. hahas.. PG18. well.. a recommended movie for your. seriously . Go watch it if you haven't watch before. =)

Well. final its around the corner. Should seriously start doing revision. or should i say. start reading what i haven't touch before.. =(

Thoughts

It's nearer. well. doubts. I hate to choose. =(

And yes. I was just being stupid.

1/4/11

2011-04-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. its april fool.. fooled your friends?? Or you yourself being fooled?

and as you can remember .. leslie cheung. And icon for hong kong . Suicide on today.. they described it as the drop of huge star.. so yeah.. it was seriously a waste.

And hey. Did you try dating or asking people out on april fool ? You will end up kept on being asked.. are you fooling me ?? Hell no.. =(((

And yeah . I do not wear skirts and i do not like to wear formal.. and the pass few day. I was REQUIRED to wear formal.. and with heels will be better. Hell no !! Yea . But i did end up wearing heels and formal as they required for 3 days.. and seriously.. heels kills. Just dont understand why can those girls wear heels and run around like nobody business. =((

Working in the exhibition was kinda fun. for this type of exhibition. i should be consider as the youngest exhibitor.. haha.. so the exhibitors around . or from the other booth seriously treat me like a kid. haha.. If i haven't went for lunch. they'll remind me. hey. it's kinda late. go get your lunch. or you haven't got your lunch? faster go lo.. they're scared i'm bored, so they'll just come over when there is no visitors. but yea. they didn't know . that was the time when i rest me legs with the killing heels. =( being nice but dine the wrong thing. there is no way you sitting there talking with them while they're standing infront of counter right?

So yeah.. i miss my t-shirt, my jeans, my slippers and my sneakers.. =((( badly..

Blah! out of the topic. again =(

Went to watch ' Don't go breaking my heart' . wouldn't deny it was a good movie. I love the actors, love the settings, love the storyline and love the characters in it. the actor whom attracted me to watch this movie was Louis Koo. he's an actor with huge and fast producing in movies. but yet. he's getting better and better in his acting. The setting was awesome. the scene and the building's are pretty. seriously. and yeah. to the point. the characters. I love Daniel Wu's character. a lot. the dilemma faced by the girl was understandable though.

And yeah. through out these few days. seriously proven a theory. SMILE =) . a simple smiling face from you to others may bring others a whole day of good mood? Or maybe not a whole day. but once they return you a smile. and theres when you know you did brought good mood to them. =)) So. SMILE.. =) but faking a smile people feels too.. don't they?

Yup.. heels kills.. =((

Times

2011-03-20T00:50:00.000+08:00

Is it raining outside? I'm not sure. and i'm lazy to go and check.

Hmm.. rainy days. Brought out a lot of memory from the past.

The times whenever its raining. we'll be playing in the rain. Bet on people to run in the field while raining heavily. pushes friend out from the corridor and let them wet like mad. play paper scissors , the one who lose stands under the broke down drain for 3 seconds.. haha~ that was insane. there's no difference whether is 3 sec or 1 minute. you'll get wet in a second under the pipe. haha. print 'body gloves' on people that's still clean and dry.

For a sudden. i misses all those times. the times i've still not grown up. the only will to go to school was meeting them. School life was nothing without them. we'll easily get hyped up even it was only a small issue. Tricking those kids that acts smart infront on us seniors. Well. did not really participate it . but yea. who would trust.. =( wtf..

Enthusiastic to go represent school just to run away from midterm. hahas =) and woah! race car! in sg long. and took out a whole damn stack of reference book and notes while taking replacement test. hahas =)) sharing notes while exam. whole exam paper being pulled away by friend to copy.. haha~~~ =) teacher teaching us how we're suppose to answer during exam?? hahah~ wtf!

Mentioning bout them. accidently ran through a few girl's blog. found out they would like to state something like. erm. those boys approaches me themselves. or i have a lot of opposite sex friends. Duh. the main purpose was to show how popular were you among guys? keep it to yourself la dengz.

And yea. indeed. most of my friends are opposite sex. But hey! make it clear. they even treat me as a boy. When i'm saying these. people thought i'm just like them . Duh. Trust me. go and ask around my secondary school friends. Seniors, juniors, boy or girls. they'll give you the same answer. tomboy. =( I don't like to play word twistings. i'm kinda straight forward. according to them. which made me kinda annoys people sometimes. =((

Seriously. majority of them . even doubt why i wasn't born as a boy. haha. even i doubt so.. So whenever people doubting one of them was courting me. they'll like . wui! gila sial. gay kah? hahah~~ =) even i'll be saying that to those who's asking. haha~ ~~Gay lan gay.~~ Gay!

Issshh.. can't stand my lappy's touch pad. wtf.. it's too sensitive. Fabian was right. =(

Woots. just found out seriously loads of friends working in the mines currently. For those i didn't say hi, forgive me kays? i'm short sightness =( not lansi =(

Thoughts
Distance. distance. distance.

Tired

2011-03-11T14:34:00.000+08:00

I'm tired to repeat and repeat the same old thing again and again.

i'm seriously tired. Damn it! i'll just give up mentioning it.

Do it the way you like . I gave up and i'm fed up.

There's no difference whether did i said it.

I'll just give up telling and mentioning. damn it.

承诺

2011-03-09T11:46:00.001+08:00

总是有个让人讨厌的坏习惯。

承诺。对。

我不轻易做出承诺。

这样的我。

总让人觉得。不认真。不把东西装在心上。

吊儿郎当。不愿意长大。

承诺。

对我来说。很沉重。很认真。

没有绝对的把握。没有绝对的信心。

我不想作出承诺。任何的。

不论对谁。

承诺了。就要办到。

承诺了。

办不到。办不好。

那你就干脆不要承诺。

干吗要让人有希望后。又失望呢？

办不到。办不好。

请你说出来。不要留到最后。

当期望都在你身上时。

你的一句。对不起。我办不到。

你懂。你那么轻易就说出来的一句话。

听的人，期望的人，失落的心情。

不是那么轻易就可以挥洒掉。

当你做出承诺时。

请你。有心理准备。

你要承担的。你的承诺。

承担不起？

不要承诺。不要答应。

现在的一句。不可以。办不到。

会比起你承诺后的那一句不可以。办不到。

更加容易被接受。

被人说你什么都好。

总比让人觉得你不可靠好吧？

所以。我会说。

我尽量吧。

喂！奇怪的韩国人。没看过华人啊？看什么看？

Thoughts

答应了。你办不到。就请你别答应。我会比较好过。因为我不会有期望。

距离。远了。拉不近了。

是时候。对自己做出承诺了吧。

陌生人

2011-03-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

人。。

真的有时很奇怪

还是。。。

只是我。

今天

无可否认的。心情。不好。

不想。很不想。也没那个必要

让自己的心情写在脸上。

不想。让全世界都懂。

喔。。你心情不好哦？

不想。让身旁的人。也被影响。

也就今天。这个陌生人。

哈哈。他是怕我去干傻事是吗？

我有一副那个样子吗？

明明就毫不相干。语言不同。扯也扯不上边的陌生人。

我却对着他。说了好多。好多。

说了平时莫名其妙的想法。

说了平时说不出口的心事。

毫无戒心的。说了。

也许。大家都懂。

这一面之缘。也就可能真的是一次。

说了什么。也无妨。

我不认识你。你也不认识我。

你不喜欢我说的东西。

听了也伤不了你什么。

所以才能开怀畅谈。

有些事情。

习惯性的。就我一个人懂就好了。

不习惯说出来。

对着身边的家人，朋友。

都还是开不了口。

现在。却对这个陌生人说。

哈哈哈。很奇怪。

久违的雨天。

原本只想静静的和你独处。

陌生人

谢谢你让我在冰冷的雨天。感到一丝温暖。

我爱雨天。我更爱阳光。=)

谢谢

2011-03-05T23:01:00.001+08:00

当某些

东西，人，事情，关心

垂手可得的时候

就变得

不再珍贵，不会珍惜。

人

总是在追求。

追求些

得不到的

得不到的，总是比较珍贵。

得来不易，才会珍惜。

回头望。

总是在身后，身旁等待的人。

我们，都往往不会珍惜。

总是认为。

对。这就是他们的位置。

不会的。

他们不会再移开。

所以

就忘了回头再看他们的存在。

当你有空时，追求到累了。

再回头望。

还在吗?他们还在吗？

也许。很幸运的你。

他们。依然还在等待。

但是，很多时候
他们。都已经离得远远的。
已经遥不可及了。

人
总是在失去后，才懂得珍惜。
在失去后，才懂得它的珍贵。
但是，
往往在你懂得珍惜时，
已经太迟了。

曾经那么被宠，被疼。
和。现在。的冷漠。
是因为我的不懂事？
因为我的不成熟？
我？错了吗？
还是什么？

想告诉
现在仍然让我拥有的你们。
谢谢！
谢谢你们让我拥有你们。
谢谢你们出现在我的人生。

想告诉
已经不再让我拥有的你们。
谢谢！
谢谢你们曾经让我拥有你们。
谢谢你们曾经出现在我的人生。

Thoughts

不是不在意。只是诉说得累了。能吗？能放弃掉诉说的权利，就这样算了吗？

Midnight

2011-03-02T02:34:00.001+08:00

Yea. seriously shouldn't be blogging here. but.. hahas. distractions~

Woke up on 3am yesterday.. worked my ass off through out the whole day. slept for 2 hours before start working my ass off again for the lab report. He's seriously not that easy to handle.

So atleast i made a comma between my not sleeping hours. making it not consecutively 24 hours. maybe accumulate its more than. Since i didn't slept for a day. so must well i do it for 2.. woohoo~ Liver gonna burst up soon cause of these.

and hey! doubt can i drive safely? i successfully sent jiesi home without any heart attack moments. though was seriously exhausted at that moment.

owh. did i mentioned i screwed up my Physic test? fuyoh. though its predictable that i'll doomed it. but yea.. still a lil down. LOLX! down for what? since i didn't really studied for it. Screw you physic! damn you! I'm gonna pass u!

Damn it. this morning in the 'can't speak chinese properly mode' . and after the god damn Intro to business midterm i'm in the 'can't speak english properly mode' . i'm even in the 'can't write properly mode' damn it. =( how do i get to summit a lab report with proper vocab using? don't expect i'll write something bombastic now. most of the things you can find is typo now. =((

Burning midnight oil.. Who will be the one that's accompanying me this time? =)

Random

2011-03-01T06:46:00.000+08:00

Hahas. a seriously random ones.

Woke up freaking early to study for my intro to business midterm. seriously felt wtf.. why should i be dealing with these craps.

And i'm being seriously random and went to greet my mum morning. Before she even get why was i doing this. came out of no where i ask her do you know why i woke up so early? she was like. erm yea? why?

hahas. cause i'm having midterm today and i just woke up this midnight to study from the start. yesh a~

and then? you wanna tell me you finished it all up in a short while?

Nope. I just finished finding the answers but didn't even start reading.. hahha~

She don't know what should she respond. hahas.

I'm being too random that i answered myself in the notes? wtf?

I don't even know why am i posting these craps here. Aaa~ just being random =)
Finally officially off to study then =)) Wish me luck <3

Lucky

2011-02-28T21:42:00.001+08:00

Yea.. I now i know. i'm having this god damn intro to business midterm on tomorrow. and yet to start study any of it. Even complete my god damn notes. Damn it. And i'm still blogging here. =)

Yes. to you. We may not even talked before in school. But yea.. if you felt tons better after talking to me. my ears are ready. hahas. =) I'm ready for you to lan si me till you're the one behtahan. =)). And. Stay strong. Put a smile on your face. Its the best thing you can do now. And i got faith in you. =)

Just wanna show off aka sai meng a lil. i'm seriously lucky. and yes.. i do mean it. Every time. each and every time. my life. was almost being pulled away. there was this one moment that i'll be thinking. hmm. it's this the end? Or i don't even know it's really almost gonna be my ending. I'm just .. simply. a girl with tons of lucks. =)

when i'm in critical condition. i was always sent to the hospital on the last minute. yet. still right on time. So. i'm still here to crap and been able to laugh. how lucky i was. =)

There was this once. i fainted while going up the staircase. it was a long and slant staircase. if i rolled down. hahas. Gan jiong. =) i was so lucky to have someone standing beside me. held me when i was about to roll down. and carry me to the doctor. hahas. =) lucky.

the bracelet. Which i could really cut my hands off for it. hahas. joking. Describing its importance. i lost it . and i found it. =) practically. Not i'm the one that found it. But yea. it came back to me. and it's by my side now. lucky =)

Owh yeah! Lost my IC when SPM its around the corner. That was seriously wtf wtf wtf when i notice it. but yea. that person sent the IC back to me. hee . lucky =)

Hmm.. having someone to spend their precious time teaching me. while i day dreamed through out the whole 1 year. .lucky =)

When i really need a shoulder to lean on or even just an ear to listen to. there was someone always there that would rush over. no matter how tired. and would sit there. acting dumb. talking craps. pointlessly. but yea. still lucky =)

Owh yeah!! My car key. my parents really doubted how could i survive for so long. hahas. I lost my car key with the remote and the steering locker key. and yes. i found it. the person who picked it up was seriously nice. aww. felt sorry for exaggerating how worse will the person who stole my car key. And yesh! i don't have to change my whole set of alarms and craps. hee~ lucky =)

and yes. She taught me to accept losing. I've learnt . to accept losing in competitions. but yea. she taught me a more valuable ones. Losing someone whom you loved so much. your family .your precious ones. your best friend. your close friends.

people comes and goes. forever could be severed by. appreciate them. who came and left your life. lessons they taught you. maybe in a hardcore way. but TIME. will take its toll. the only it matters is time. you will take some time to digest this lesson . but yea. its making itself a big marking in your life. So. there's no other reason that you can make for yourself to do this mistake anymore. I don't know where i heard this quote from. but yea. " People who doesn't learn from the pass, they'll do it again "

And i just wanna tell you. I appreciate your existence in this life. I don't know whether my life it's gonna be short or long. But yea. you did light up part of my life. =) and i'm lucky to had you. And i'm sorry. I did not tell you.

there are too many to be list down. and you think i'll be doing that? Hell no! I'm having midterm tomorrow la dengz. =))

Thoughts
当无助。要崩溃。需要你的时候。你在哪里？为什么第一个要冲来要救我的不是你？在那么近的你。。。要冲来的。而是在十几公里外的朋友们。。。

Her

2011-02-26T22:05:00.002+08:00

Eliz Soh Yee Ling. I know you've been reading my blog too. So. Finally. This post is for you. Appreciate it! you ungrateful monkey!

Hmm. Let's start from how i get to know you this over matured kid. Yes. It's cause of Yong Chien. They were spreading the news. Hey! yong chien's sister is in our school. I don't know what was so special bout yong chien's sister. I'm just curious what the hell would a person who always throw me into a fishing pond's sister looks like. hah. you're outlook was seriously a lot of difference with him. but yea.. the sampat-ness. links your together.

I knew you always liked us seniors. you love mixing with us. meeting us . watching us being dumb. watching us fight and take picture of us.

hey. over matured kid. remember. you still owe me a yumcha session. yes. i'll kept on mentioning it so you wouldn't forget. PAY ME BACK! you know when i say i mean it.

as you said. i'm unlike usual girls. i should be born as boy. Miss my way of talking don't you? never meet a girl who talks like me don't you?

and yea. i miss you now. you still haven't get to see me wearing dress. which you nagged me for so long. hahas. i know you didn't expect i'm still not wearing dress while prom. i didn't win the prom queen not because i'm not wearing dress kays kid? as you mentioned. our cheers were almost the same. but remember what i've said when i was nominated? hahas. I do unusual stuffs.

and i miss the times. whenever i go back to secondary school. You and Jia Bei'll be shouting my name like an idiot . despite i was inside the office. the principal and teachers were there too. Or i just passed by your class. it was embarrassing for me. but now i missed it so much. Will i get to hear you shouting me when i go back?

You love taking my pictures unexpectedly .

Wai Meng and kajun looks alike huh?

I know you missed me alot. So do i.

Sorry for ditching. I'm seriously late. But you ditched me too. and its forever.

Now i'll be the one waiting for you.

I know. as you said. i'm man. hahas. i'm unusual.

I seldom get a proper photo with you.

You enjoyed seeing us fighting. And laugh your ass off standing beside.

Yes. you were also one of the junior i'm still close with.

Me and him. We always made your day don't we?

Now i only get to know. you were the one always taking my photos.

Unexpectedly.

You missed it. i would wear dress for you if you really wanted.

You loved the time spent with us. So do i.

You said you wouldn't want to miss the time with us seniors. but you left us. without a proper goodbye.

So when next time. if you get to meet me. you! should be the one who approaches me. Get to know me. Do not ever try to ditch me again.

And hey! you're the only junior who gets to sit in the car i'm driving. be grateful you monkey! Don't shout next time i'm driving. I'll dump you at the road side. I'm a safety driver la.

Smiling now? Finally get to see your boyish senior crying for you? and writing her chinese name on your wall?

And yea. i know you wouldn't want to see my down look. Hey! you left without a proper goodbye kays? It's your fault! I'll just let you feel guilty for it. For making us down. For leaving us behind.

But i still love you. So i'll be fine in a short moment. hey. who am i ? i'm still the Priscilla Pang you know. Still strong and reckless.

Keep an eye on your brother kays? He loved you way more than i do. It's the first time i saw him crying so hard.

I'll live peacefully with your brother in campus. You won't get to see us on headline. Don't worry.

I miss you now. and i'll miss you.

Forgive my typo . I'm still a lil lost right now.

Bits and Pieces of 2010

2011-02-21T00:29:00.001+08:00

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

< If I Die Young>

Finally! this post will be mostly photos=) Review of 2010 still in process. Bear with me. i got no time and patience to rearrange according to timing. A lil random. =)

My another Lai Wai Meng =)

Went through my sweet first sem with them <3

Satisfied with my results. =))

Officially learn pool. =)

Hoi Tong<3

Celebration after our successful moral presentation <3

Efforts did paid off =)

Belated birthday celebration <3

Went back for visit.

5As.

Forever gay-ish

Last part of video shooting~ yay~

Stop Racism <3

Look Out Point =)

Us~ 5As

Heng Dai that i wouldn't dump =)

Praying for all the best. =)

My boy <3

A lovely gift. =)

Yay~ on barred listing at first sem =)

A friend that i can hardly dump. =)

Senior

Malaysian Study group =)

KLPAC =)

In Ladies. with chin wei =)

My dear MJ <3

Emo kia~ Max <3

Most unexpected present =)

Well Known gay couple. They lighted up my first sem =)

Thats what are friends for <3

Whom lighten up my second sem =)

Lighted up my stressful video editing time =)

Memorable? =)

Misses and Loves

Sei Gay Mui <3

After Malaysian Studies presentation =) What a release.

Pointless babi. =)

Us <3

Only one will understand what's this. Secret between us <3

enjoy driving at night time? =)

NSQKL Royce and Bernard as invited guest <3 group leader on stage =)

Rambutan! Group member on stage =)

Count down Christmas eve <3

Christmas gifts. to them =)

Unwrapping my sister's efforts. <3

Book fair =) my babi.

hahas~ My gay mui. =)

hahahas~

He just can't be gentle to me. =(

hmm.. miss school times too =(

6Ss~ gathered =) <3

PAL =) On hand =)))

Thoughts

2011-02-18T00:02:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i seriously like to do assignments at last minute. yea. i know it sounds insane. but yea.. I'm kinda addicted to the exhaustion after brain storming. hahas.. gila. i know. i do studies on last minute. homework on last minute. projects and yea.. hell lot of things on last minute. whenever it works out well. yea. its a credit. but whenever it doesn't. well~ last minute work what. what do you ask for?? damn. i'm like influencing people to do stuffs on last minute. Hey.. Don't do your stuffs on last minute. it do happens not to work out too. then you're doomed. hee =)

Why was i on this topic? yea.. i did it again. Nagged Wai Meng to teach me calculus. and the test was only on tomorrow. and i totally don't have any idea or clue what was it all about. hahaha. i seriously doubt how i went through my whole damn high school and even my SPM. Even got an B for my add maths? wtf.. hahas. and yea. bumped into 2 person. but luckily Wai Meng was here. So i don't have to entertain them . hee =)

And again. Business assignment's due date is on tomorrow and we totally did not start a thing about until today. wee~ Brain storming again~ Todays moment reminds me bout the moment in sec school. brain storm to plan events, competition, camps and craps. evolving the initial idea into an awesome and jaws dropping idea. hahas. pointless ideas. out of the topic and laughing your ass off moments. yea. i miss those moments. we may even quarrel or we're competitors. but when we stepped out from the room. Jom. makan. hahas. we even helped and share spaces with competitors. all of our own idea which should be like highly private and confidential is all on the table to share. We even helped each other. =) i love those moments. It maybe tired. Exhausting. sometimes even frustrating. But the main point is we did enjoy the whole process. The result may not have ended as what we've expected. but yea. i've learnt to accept failure. hmm. accept the fact i'm losing was like an mission impossible to me. Yea. it was. but thanks to the person who taught me to accept failing. You never fail, you never get to enjoy the moment of success. =)

Dengz. Out of the topic again. the main point i was blogging was cause of an imaginary idea. hahas. " An idea its like an virus." quote from 'Inception' . or i should consider this as a thoughts only. Sometimes. i seriously. yes.. serious ones. doubt why didn't my mum born me as a boy. I do not sound like a girl. i do not act like a girl. i do not wear like a girl. i don't even have a girl's personality? Damn. then why i wasn't born as a boy??
duh.. craps..

Thank you =)

2011-02-15T00:12:00.001+08:00

And yes. it's you. i would wanna thank you for been a part of my life. Thank you Bryan Chin Yoon Fui. Forgive me if i spell your name wrongly. Never really wrote your name.

Seriously felt like blogging you after the talk. And yes. thank you for telling me everything. yea. you're right. I maybe a good girl . but not a good girlfriend. And yea. it's really way more better to be my friend than my boy. thank you for tolerated me so much. Even it was i'm the one making mistakes. you would apologize in the end. you pampered me too much. that's why i never willing to learn to grow up. whenever i refuse to listen to you. you would just let me be. You doted me too much. you would do whatever i required. even it's really unfair. And i'm really sorry. For being rude most of the time to you. Never let you know what was on my mind. And attitude changes all the time. I'm sorry for letting you feeling uneasy while with me. Sorry for letting you waited me for so long. You deserve someone better. =)

Hahas. Stop being too picky lo wei. should seriously find a right one and settle down. hope to see the right ones for you by this year. stop your car entertainment thing bah. =) She'll be the lucky ones.

Outings

2011-02-12T01:22:00.005+08:00

Finally after ditching and ditchings.. We get to yumcha together.. haha. Yesh. with Chin Wei And Mel. yea yea. i know its a seriously late update. memories slightly faded too. but well. since its a finally . so it's worth for update then =) didn't really remember what did we talked about. but yea. it was memorable because we have to like. shouting to each other to chat. haha . this was kinda stupid thou.

And yes. I skipped my intro to business lecture. why? cause i was drove to Bangsar without being noticed. =( All the way to Bangsar for what? haha~ Just for lunch. hahaha~ yea. gila.

Finally watched ' I Love Hong Kong ' it was hilarious! haha. worth watching. =)

Attended Ching Ching's praying ceremony. Meet a few camp mate? actually didn't really remember or even saw their face. but yea. kinda worth knowing too. Especially Kah Fai, and James. I don't know whether does his name spells so. Forget bout it. he was seriously like a drunkard . hahaha~ he never fails to make me laugh. yea.. haha =) and James. nice guy thou. And. hey. He's single and available. studying at UCSI too. Future accountant. =) Girls. go for it bah. Finally get to light up the wishing lantern? aka 'kong ming deng' . thanks to baobei and my pig. thanks for coming over. =)

And hey! Feeling moody or down there? or pointlessly surfing net? check out kevjumba's latest video. haha~ Most of the asian kids meet the same situation as him. don't you? haha~

New year

2011-02-08T01:29:00.000+08:00

Yup.. it's officially 2011 for chinese. =) so gonna make a short summary for new year. and will do one for 2010. yea.. i know it's kinda late for the 2010 one. but . Hey! i got hell lot more of stuffs to do other than updating.

As i said. on the 30th. i cut my finger with saw. =) yesh a.

Day one. Vegetarian breakfast at maluri. as usual. then off to Ampang. as usual too. Isshh.. I hate those kids that thinks we're filthy rich just because of the car that we're driving. =( Materialistic. Went to bao bei's house as promised. =) meet his relatives and parents. Hope i didn't disappoint you.

Day two. still maluri. that uncle's house was like 2 road down.. walking distance. So. kids were required not to trouble them to drive. So means? walk la! aww. =( i'm more tanned. makin macam malay.. hahaha =) seriously never chat with those paternal side cousins. except for the own family ones. One of my cousin brother was like 20 years old. elder than me. And all the while i thought i was elder than him . though he looks elder . maybe caused of his. erm.. height? So as the elder's were. discussing or i don't know what ever. or quote Victor's quote. "hui ngai-ing" . we watched a movie we missed out during the year before last year. 2009. It's a Louise Ku movie. And yup. we gila until when they ask us to go back. we choose it's commercial time and ran back. hahaha=) we were even faster than those that are cycling back. Spent almost a whole day at maluri.

Day three. STILL. Maluri. but yea. before going to maluri. went to movie with my cousin brother. Luckily we booked the ticket. if not. HAHAHA! the queue was like. fuyoh. so damn long. Watched 'The green hornet'. from Jay Chou, Cameron Diaz. And seriously i don't know the other hero. But he was funny thou. Jay Chou's english.. erhemm. You still can get what he was trying to say through the subtitle. =) No offence for jay Chou's fans kays? he still consider as awesome to pick up so fast the language that he totally has no concept bout it. And yea. 'The green hornet' still can be consider is a great movie. you can hear non-stop laughters in the cinema. And it's my grandpa's birthday~ So. Steamboat for that. And yea. I ate the tomyam. haha.. which worsen my condition. wee~ gengz a~ add on 2 slice of cheese cake. which irritates my throat. seriously. haha.. sleepless night lo wei.. =(

Day four. Finally went to Sri Petaling. we were like more closer to the maternal side cousins more than paternal side. =) we got loads of topic to talk and discuss. and also crap. haha. then went to watch 'All's well ends well' with my secondary plus a lil late for uni senior. Victor. Didn't know banana can communicate well in chinese too. =) his chinese was even better than Louise Koo. hahas. Died laughing for that movie. Never saw a tanned, muscular, yeng and handsome man pretending sissy? watched this then. =) Donnie Yen was also one of the reason i'm watching this movie. And yea. it's a worth watching block buster too. =) And. Hey. thanks Victor. Thanks for the movie, fetching me and caused you to delay your brunch to an official lunch. and you even have to rush.. =)) Meet up with bao bei after movie. was forced to say hi to the doctor. =( and yea. the doctor might be a little too exaggerating. His facial expression was like. Waa~ u fever 38 o! and oii! throat very red! serious infection! Adui.. 38 only. Still can't burn my head down.. hee =) i dont know how much it is in Fahrenheit. cause i usually measure it in Fahrenheit. hmm? might go and check it out due to curiosity. =) and so sorry for Ming Wei and Henry. Have to wait for me to finish my lunch and dinner. And. hee =) baobei don't worry. i'm fine. can't die yet.

Thoughts
New Year? Is this the only reason that we'll meet up? Can it be more than that? Hope you did enjoy those times with us. =)

Happy Chinese New Year

2011-02-03T02:34:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year peeps. How did your reunion dinner went? enjoyed? Saw your long lost cousins and nephews? Played fire crackers? burned your hands?

Well. an amazing start for this officially 2011 chinese new year. yup. cut my hand with a saw. yesh a. a whole damn slice of flesh is gone . good job. But yea. luckily i'm not left handed. so. no harm . =) cut off my hair too.. =) for like 15 cm or more than that? hee. yea.. its really kinda short compare to previous ones. more manageable bah. cause i don't waste time on hair. =) Well. anyways. should be a good start this year. =) everything will just be fine. =)

Him

2011-02-01T03:02:00.000+08:00

This man. I'll just never get my eyes off him. yes. he is attractive. He has the charisma to lock your sight. Yes. And he is such an awesome man that you'll hardly get another one in this life time.

Yes and he is Micheal Jackson.

Don't tell me you never heard about him. He's the King of Pop. And he is also currently the first , one and only dancer that is inducted into the Dance Hall Of Fame from the world of pop and rock 'n' roll. He was also recognized by the Guinness World's Record's Most Successful Entertainer At All Time. Over four decades. yes. four decades. he was a global figure in popular culture.

And did you know that. he. was the first artist to lead other artist to give a helping hands towards Africa. He had the leadership. and charisma to get all those top artists to cooperate with him and recorded this well known song. 'We are the world' . those artist maybe kinda outdated for now. but yea. they were the top ones at that time.

Accusing him for undergoing facial plastic surgery? shut the hell up then. you never knew him much. His nose was broken while shooting a commercial. That's the reason he have to go for plastic surgery. Don't tell me you can bear to carry a broken nose through out your whole damn life. Further more he's an artist.

Accusing him for bleaching his skin to white? or thought that he felt ashamed for being a black? you're so damn wrong then. It was a disease. it made him sensitive to sunlight. And yea. People chooses to listen and see what they want. felt so pathetic for them. Heard of 'Black and white' before? one of his hits? yea. Go and get the meaning of the lyrics.

And yeah. He launches his every single album with an intermediate of almost five years. Yet. His song never failed to lead the trend. his songs can kept on billboard and consider as hits for a long period until the launching of his next album. And there goes another leading trend.

I don't know why. I just felt heart ache for some one that is so talented. yet humble and nice. soft spoken man. kind hearted. to be accuse for sexual abusing children. Hell no. He was the victim of child abuse. And why on earth would he do so to other children. Even the children whom was asked to accuse him stood up and talked for him. And! those public just won't face the fact. maybe they were jealous bout this man. that's given. But. did you ever thought what have he went through. to get all of these. fame, fortune and reputation.
he was given. yet! he worked hard. maybe harder then what you've expected. So. jealous? blame yourself for not working hard.

=/

2011-01-28T18:49:00.005+08:00

Issshhh! I seriously hates headaches. It kills! Can i cut it off? damn it! Plus having headache and drive in a jam? wtf? i seriously felt asleep while jamming. Yea yea yea. dangerous. well~ nevermind~ i'm not fetching anyone~ i'm only risking my own life~ hahahahah~ Gonna drive safe~ drive safe~ i'm still young~

Most of the drivers are getting more inpatient . I don't know why. Maybe it's because it's more closer to new year? So? Ahh. Just don't understand them. Motorcyclist is way more worser than driver.

Seriously gonna drive safe.. =)

=)

2011-01-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

Watched Datuk Lee Chong Wei's semi final and final match in Malaysia Open. Woots.. totally won without too much effort. the semi final was legend. 21-9 and 21-9.. he totally like won with eyes closing. final was not bad too. versus Taufik. 21-8. the second match did slightly slipped a little. 21-18 if not mistaken. still.. won without too much effort. I do hope he'll meet Lin Dan again. then that i'll call a match. =) Still getting 7 times in Malaysia Open is not easy. Way to go Datuk~

Physic lab was not as difficult as i expect. it was way more easier. But yea. Don't look down on this subject. Cause it's all about calculations. Damn it. I hate maths. People do doubt whenever i say i hate maths. Hee. =) . I hate maths but i can forcefully make a B+ out of it. wee~ Plus. it's my last sem. I seriously do not wish for ANY extra sem or even SUPP. Hope i can cooperate well with those 2 that never done any experiment before. aww.. headache.

noticed that. people thinks i'm more towards a boy than a girl. hahas~ yea. I do not wear dress. I do not make up. I do not spend time on hair caring. I can tie my hair without a comb. I do not wear heels. I prefer sneakers. I prefer jeans. I do not hang a hand bag. I do not do shoppings. I do not go on diet.. wow.. I should born as a boy shouldn't i? well. maybe it's cause i'm still young. I have so-called capital to do so . and hang out with no doubt. =))

Hmm. Was feeling very uneasy today. Don't ask me why. cause i don't feel like telling. Sorry. but yea. I'll be fine. in a very short period. Well. who do you think i am? I'm Priscilla Pang . No doubt. I'll be fine. =) Sorry for making your worry. but yea. i can assure your that i'll be just fine. =)

Thoughts
Are you still mine? or not? I started to doubt.

Distance

2011-01-16T02:00:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure whether is it true or illusion.
there's a sense of distance between us.
Unsure. Uneasy. and i don't know who to talk to.Yup. distance.
You're real close to me. but i don't know. I don't know what's on your mind.
Doubts. thoughts. craps. emotional. all in a piece of mess right now.
Should seriously have my own life back. Losing myself? I don't know.
I'll take over the toll and do the talking. Selfish or what. I don't care.
I'm losing my ability to express myself. Held too tight or hands off.
I'll do the things the way i like. the way i want. the way i should.
hate to lost my temper. I've controlled it so well that people forgotten that I DO HAVE TEMPER TOO!
Keep these on mind. Don't push me to my limit. Don't treat me like a fool.
I hate so. and i mean it.

Damn it. I hate to be so down . but yea. damn you. don't make me starting to hate u.

=(

2011-01-06T22:07:00.000+08:00

I don't know whether should i trust you for this.
I don't know. I don't wanna prejudge you.
Should i trust him? Or you?
If he's telling the truth. then i'm seriously disappointed in you.
I hope you've done what you've promised.
I don't hope to know the truth from others.
Or i shouldn't have involved in your life in the beginning?
Furious mixing up with disappointments.
My mind can't judge now.
I'm so sick. Can't make distinct judgement.
Fever is seriously burning up my brain cells.
I can't think of a thing now.
I'm sorry. Leave me alone.
I don't feel like talking to you.
So sorry.

冯家润

2010-12-31T03:08:00.001+08:00

男人。你成熟的程度。能让我叫你男人了吧。

他。这个男人。我的男人。
偶尔很孩子气。偶尔爱吃醋。偶尔很野蛮。
偶尔很体贴。偶尔很调皮。偶尔很温柔。
偶尔很傻。真的很傻。
一个很爱我。无条件为我付出的。

看他样子。不像会做傻事的人。
不觉得他会为我做这种傻事。
但是。他做了。真的做了。
为了我在那么短的时间戒烟。
为了见我。那五分钟不到。最多一个小时。
他特地驾辆车来见我。
为了想见我。
竟然想驾车到营地。一个我连正确地点也不懂的地方。
他竟然真的想驾来。
为了准备早餐给我。
一早爬起来煮。
那么爱睡的家伙。哈哈。。
不敢期望你能答应我那么不平等的要求。
对你。一点也不公平。
完全违反了你能接受的原则。

但是。为了我。你答应了。
你愿意等。
愿意等。这样的我。
愿意等。还给不到承诺的我。
愿意等。没什么特别的我。
愿意挨。这样的三年。
谢谢你。没让我失望。

这个男人。也许。我用了很多很多的好运气了吧。
用了很多的好运气。才让我遇到他。

为了我哭。为了我流泪。
为了我打拼。为了我。不求回报的付出。
为了我。不平等的要求也接受。
你总是能让我很感动。很感动。
你也总是让我心疼。

对不起。在你需要安慰时。需要肩膀靠时。我可能不能在你身旁。
对不起。在你为事业打拼时。不能陪在你身旁。

三年后。也应该很难再遇到一个像你那么傻的吧。
限量版的。

如果哪一天。如果真的有那一天。
我不是你的了。
我会很坦白。对你说。
对一个曾经这样爱我的人。

对不起。在一起。才就那么一个月。
就那么过分的要求你等我那么久。

男人。别再伤害自己了。好吗？
我比较喜欢看到自信饱满的你。
而不是刚才。那么憔悴。

对不起。不能做到你要求的。
连那一半。也不能了。

我明白那是你的发泄管道。看了。
是会很不好受。但是只要你好受点。
我也是可以的。我不能再对你自私了。
对不起。委屈你了。

想对你说的。真的是太多了。
一起为那三年后加油吧。我对你有信心。
我对你有信心。有信心你能继续留我在你身旁。

张安琪

2010-12-31T00:29:00.000+08:00

都习惯了叫你安琪。却没真真的问过你。你的名字是这样写吗？

对。这篇post是写给你的。
谅你也猜到我的华语不好。
写一篇全部都是华语的post。
要很久。真的很久。
相信你也大概知道发生什么事了。
对不起。我只能说的也只有对不起了。
对不起。让你心酸。
对不起。让你感到无力。
对不起。让一切都变成回忆。
对不起。让一切开心的都太少，太短暂。
对不起。我能给的不多。
对不起。让你不好受。
对不起。我不能对你承诺什么。
对不起。真的很对不起。

朋友虽然很多。但知心的。也只有那几个。
而你。是其中一个。
是我很幸运。真的很幸运。
在我升学途中的转站。遇到你。
可以说我很后悔。也可以说我不后悔。
后悔，在这里，留下的回忆太多，太美好。舍不得。真的很舍不得。
舍不得让你伤心。
舍不得在你最无助的时候，连借个肩膀给你，也办不到。
舍不得在你的压力很大时，连逗你笑，也办不到。
但是就算再舍不得。我应该还是会选择我的转站在这里。
不能后悔。也不会后悔。

你说的一切。我还会再给你的。
在我能力范围的。我会尽量的给你。
在我还能做到的时候。我会做给你。

慢慢习惯。在别的朋友面前。也不伪装。会有意外收获的。
没事的。慢慢会习惯的。

记得。就算我不在身边。有什么事。我的肩膀依然让你靠。

宝贝

2010-12-27T23:24:00.001+08:00

I know i should be updating stuffs bout my camp. but i seriously got no mood for it.

宝贝。

你对我真的很重要。

别怀疑自己在我心中的地位。

朋友对我固然很重要。

但是，

我可以接受失去他们，

我不能接受没有你。

别再说你不管我了，

好不好？

别再说倒数庆祝了，

好不好?

别再这样了，

好不好？

很不好受。

真的很不好受。

每次说话一定要用吵架来结束吗？

一定要酱吗？

我爱你。冯家润。

我要的，也只是你。

Thoughts

你说的话真的伤到我了。可以不要再让我哭吗？
你的心情，也是会影响我的。

Updates

2010-12-16T22:34:00.001+08:00

Should be doing some updates since i'm going to camp tomorrow. And.. i think i'll have loads of crap to post after camp.

Woots~ finally~ done with dealing with my finals~ woohoo~ So.. that means I'm free~ Lai~Date me yumchas~

Talking bout finals. I scored quite high for my bio midterm. Yesh a~ but in my memory. i was playing camera with xue ling before midterm. WTF.. hahaha~ and yeap~ i got 3 essays for bio finals. AND the point is.. Thanks a vicky~ I can write 2 essays out without any doubt. i did refer to Leng kai's note. but it was too confusing. So i ended up asking for vicky's help 2 hours before final~ yea.. last minute workout again. I hope it works. Please.. i need 2.5 CGPA! Seriously gonna study hard and cut down my outings next sem. I have to atleast score an A. To pull up the whole results.

Owh yeah. and i found out that i was really damn lucky! Every sem. Every sem i won't be the one that score the worst~ Last sem was Fabian behind me. This sem one more~ Teck Jia~. It means i'm improving or they started to get more lazy? Wakakaka~

Bao bei and angie came over to study again last sunday. Yea Yea.. Study.. Angie was like sleeping all day long . And bao bei. More headache. So we really ended up didn't study. for the whole night and midnight too. Too tired to get up.

I can't recall where did i went last saturday. I remember i had an outing. but i can't recall where did i went.

OWH YEAH! I went to Digital Fair. Then went to support Liyin's inter-school competition. Liyin was seriously impressive. She got an silver medal for her sugar deco piece. She was also the best student at her batch. you'll get to see those photos at Suan Zai's profile. Since Ngaip Kim wasn't there to take photos.

Angie, remember. INDEPENDENT . When you break the two words down. IN. Dependent. Do not depend on anyone. You can depend on me while i'm still at here. But you have to learn how to take good care of yourself after next sem. Ask me if you need any help. in any ways. Since now you know i can do stuffs that normal girl can't do. Wakakak~

Christmas is really getting closer. but still not having the Christmas mood. Maybe cause my sem break it's too short. Damn it. nevermind. I'll get 2 months break after my foundation. Isshh... nobody's having the mood to set up christmas tree in my house. And the most headache part is going for party. exchanging present. What should i buy? And what should i buy for that two pigs? Isshhh... Suggestions?? And damn ! wrapping presents!

Facebook. My account seems popular huh? more and more strangers add my account.. and.. either confess on facebook chat or facebook message.. Woots... apa lai?

this post took me 3 hours. Damn it. Why? cause i have to go in and out from the house continuously. And Thanks to Lai Wen Hoo! Kept on nagging me beside me. He just can't stop asking questions! Waaa~~ But the only thing good is his gel smells like bao bei's. hahaha~~ and hairstyle too~

Thoughts
I'm sorry. I still mind of those photos. Isshhh.... Too sensitive... Mafan aaaa~~

Bingo

2010-12-10T13:44:00.002+08:00

Finally a new post here. It has accumulate for 5 days. So as ya know, Bingo games need 5 numbers in a strike. So since i didn't do any updates for like 5 days in a strike. So must well i put the title as BINGO. Wtf am i talking bout?

Last sunday, Bao bei and angie really came to sungai long. to study together. After fulfilled their cravings for Passion cafe. Went to 17 to study. they 2 seriously sound more like sungai long people nowadays. Trigonometry is seriously brain cell killing . And angie tyo. happy now? you took my first time. Hahaha~ my first time to let my friend stay overnight at my house. and we did study at midnight. Angie tyo is seriously a reborn of pig. She can't even notice her alarm and refuses to wake up. She dragged almost 30minutes just to wake up. And. Woots. how can you get an A for english. your english seriously makes me headache. You should seriously learn more. You're stepping into the society. And english is an important communication language. Don't use your broken english please!

Had finish dealing with my 3 hectic subjects. CS, Algo and GEN CHEM 2! Gen chem 2.. Isshh.. I seriously felt that i'll be taking supplementary paper for this crap. And Alvin, just won't stop mentioning retake retake infront of me.

I'll kill myself if i'll have to retake! People kill themselves for breaking ups. which i seriously wouldn't do and won't do and not worth to do. If that's the end, just turn around and walk away. If he or she is the one meant for you, the end will not exist. If it emerged. face the fact. You'll maybe get a better one. Or if you didn't get a better one. You got more awesome things to do besides killing yourself for someone who doesn't love you anymore. Love yourself back.

For the first time i can even bother to waste my time with the... erm..should i address them as marker? and MPH is freaking cold. It makes me kept on fall asleep. Damn it. i'm too tired.

And yea. Don't feel like mentioning it. but something did happened and ruined my mood for like 2 days. WTF.

When he kept on insisting me to learn to say thank you, futher than I love you when i'm really appreciating someone. Suddenly felt like more people came up and telling me i love you. wakakakaka~

Woots.. 2 yumchas in a row. postponed one and another one came. and 3 counting downs . Ditched one.still have 2 to go. God. why those events are like coming in combo? campings, paintballs, movie, picnic and a musical drama that i'll have to ditched.what else more? Owh yeah! and still own an outing with them before she's leaving. Ishhh.... Hope i'm still alive after posting these outings out at here. I wanna go out~ can i can i?? Please~

Thoughts
You may not be the most important to me now. but you are indeed important to me.
Didn't knew my mood could affect you too. I'll keep my mood hyped up afterwards.

today

2010-12-05T01:32:00.000+08:00

So since my CS final is on next monday. And i still don't have an idea on what's flowchart is all about. so i called up for yong chien's help. Thanks a dai gor~~ he was searching all over his don't even know which sem's notes to find his CS notes. AND thanks for worrying i'm too lonely and helped me posted a " i feel so lonely" post. Dengzz. some more directly hut my laptop down!

Went dinner at look out point with bao bei. hahaha~ he's dead now. i seriously can make him explode~ wakakaka~~ gek sei jor~ Jealousy killed him~ i did nothing~ i swear~

Sorry a meng gor~ next time i text you directly~

Angie, i never doubt that if i need someone to talk to, no ones there. i knew you were always there for me. i never doubt. I love you~ don't dream too much a~ faster go and watch 'Inception' i can't wait to see your reaction towards that movie. update your blog more often?

it seems like having breakfast with them leads me to a healthier lifestyle. I can't even figure out what to eat this morning. cause no one was there to decide for me. So i ended up combining breakfast and lunch. brunch~ hahahah~

Victor Wong's song is on my top playlist now. i kept on listening non stop. the whole cd kept on repeating and repeating all over again .

Thoughts
the thing you've mentioned. shocked me. and surprised me. you did made a long planning. but wait you'll have to wait till i graduate.
i'm willing to do so.=)

消失

2010-12-04T00:38:00.000+08:00

消失了2个小时

关了全部和外界通讯的东西

只是听品冠的歌

感觉好很多了

不安的感觉

又来烦人了

有够烦的咯你

时不时又来一下

宝贝，对不起

忘了说声

让你担心了

我知道你看到这里会生气

为什么不找你

对不起

我只是想试下自己应付

看，我没事了~

2nd sem finals~

2010-12-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

First day of finals for my 2nd sem ~ i should seriously reconsider bout this studying at midnight's bad habit. It causes me to look pale the other day. And the most important part is i fell asleep while i'm writing my essay for my malaysian studies final! WTF!! Luckily they haven't collect the attendance slip . So i was awoke by them while they were finding for my slip~ If not. huh~ And i was so blur that i didn't notice jiesi was just sitting behind me, yong jing infront of me, and ken pang is at my row too. Yea yea yea.. day dreaming.

The more epic one was i left my exam token on angie's bag. and after i came back from toilet. MY TOKEN DISAPPEARED! WTF! people can steal just whatever that is left down don't they? i was looking all around the bags nearby. and there was no sign of it. even jiesi and ken pang went around and checked. yet. no sign of it. WTF! lost my token on the first day of final? i'm such a genius! when i was giving up and wanted to pay the fine and get a new one at registrar office, ken pang saw my token was left on the examiner's table. Waaa~~ dai lou a! can you at least ask around after you took my token??!!

Went to help for doing some survey thing. Food testing, energy bar. after eating it. it makes me miss the energy bars i bought. way more better~~

owh yea~ Thanks a Yong Chien dai lou~~ you willing to help then what also okay la~~

Angie~ i'm not going to tell until it's before Gen Bio 1 paper~ so i'm counting down to have 11 days of extremely good mood~ Woohoo~~

Sorry, i still felt uneasy and unsure easily. but it's turning better. It will turn better. bao bei, don't worry kays? my mood is more variable than the stock market~ hahahahaha~~

Thoughts
Isshh.. if i'm swearing that he did not affect my mood. i'm lying.
It's time to step up and step out. He's different from him. i hope.
i hope.

Moods

2010-12-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

Something made my 'strived to to study at midnight' mood gone. It's a long and crappy story. So dump it aside.

bao bei,I felt better after talking with you. my uneasiness gone away.

It's past tense. It's too late for the regreting part. you knew it. you knew everything was too late. you should be expecting this since you've made this decision. Don't! and Don't tell me bout regret. Time cannot be reversed. You're sorry now doesn't helps. Get use to it then.

Angie, i felt like talking to you. alot~

Handicapped

2010-12-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

Yea yea.. i know you'll be saying i'm stupid. I gave my number away to a stranger. I even promised to meet up. he almost kill me for being so stupid. Sorry la~~ But i still love to see your freaked out face.. Yea yea.. i'm a weirdo or psycho or whatever. hahaha~~ i love that face~~ And according to Yong Jing. I'm in big trouble for letting him know me. He's a annoying guy or stalker? Damn it. Regret for being busybody lo wei~

Seriously, currently facebook is like getting more and more stalkers. I on my facebook chat once in a blue moon, and that when i get to met those idiots. yea. It's kinda annoying when the chat box keeps on pop up after you closed it again and again.

And yea. my right hand is injured again. 2 fingers . its a long and stupid story. So, i'm half handicapped now. cause both of the wound are at the turning part. it's a lil difficult while i have to control the steering. Plus Thank you Lee Wah Lung! I wouldn't get cut by those shreds if i don't save your god damn iphone4! Isshhh! And you are indeed getting more and more fat now! Go diet please~~ AND AND! Don't make me on ground again! It's not in school! It's public!

Angie~ now i suppose you starting to know more and more things. hahaha~~ don't tell kays? hahahah~~

Ken Pig~ saw my gan fu now. Happy? hahahah~~ i still love your freak out face~

Thoughts
我爱上你气炸的样子~我变态都是你害的！

Updates

2010-11-28T16:08:00.000+08:00

should be doing some updates at here.

promised to fetch Melvin aka my gay nurse to Midvalley. Yea. and let him see the one i've mentioned to him. Melvin seriously makes me touched sometimes. He remembers every little single thing that i've said. Every time i get shocked when he says out things that i've told him while i can't even remember that i did. hahaha~~ i just love talking to you. Melvin~ shocked huh? she knows alot. lot more than you can imagine. She's the only one i'm willing to share my craps with in my new life. And. Don't miss me too much Mel~

hahas~

Angie pig. hahaha~ never knew i've told you so much things that i even forgot that i've told you. hahahah~ You must be shocked when you found out that you actually knows alot about me. hahah~ And don't get yourself too tired please.

Sunglasses suit you more~~

Pig! you shouldn't came out with me on that day! you're sick! you should rest more. Still say wanna take care of me? Take good care of yourself bah~

Soh geh~

and that few pigs! came to my house! to find me on 11 pm. Night! God! and they were nagging me to go out? Waaa~ still copy Meng Gor lo. and Vincent was nagging to drive my manual car And! he don't have license. Your few seriously out of your mind!

27/11

Went to accompany that pig and ditched their morning date.Sorry a~ If not he'll complain that i dump him o.. then finally meet up with them at greenbox. that 2 stupid was planning to scare the hell out of me.. but attempt failed~ hahaha~ so enter greenbox while waiting soo cheng to get here. that 2 pig kept on singing those songs that easily get hyped up. and that leads too when soo cheng arrives. we were exhausted. hahaha~ Again. Melvin Yong. don't treat me like a kid kays? he covers my eyes and say' eh eh eh, cannot watch this part.. cannot cannot watch!' hahahah~~ WTF! i'm 18 kays?

Haven't seen her for 2 years. yea. 2 years.

Took after melvin won the competition with pride~

While waiting soo cheng to try out her cloths.

Soo Cheng, I hope you can enjoy your new life like i'm doing. all the best~

Pig. Happy now? finally go public on Facebook. Shocked all my friends and let them keep on asking. hahahah~~

Thoughts

yea. I've let go of it i think. i don't mind of it now.

It's been years. you should let go. you're my past tense. and his my current tense, and i hope he'll be my future tense.

I'm glad to be the right one for you<3

This I Promise You

2010-11-25T22:37:00.001+08:00

If anyone ask me what was i doing just now. I can answer you for sure. I'm listening to Ronan Keating. And i'm addicted to him again. Yea. it's again. I was addicted to his "When You Say Nothing At All" and " If Tomorrow Never Comes" last time. And now, you should seriously listen to " This I Promise You". I just love the way he sang that song.

Finally. classes are stepping into last classes. and it stands for final it's really really close. AND! i still yet to touch those notes. Isshh.. Encouragements please? or motivations?

And i broke my record. I had dinner at midnight, 2am~ hahahahah~ was a long story to explain. But seriously. It's dinner. Not supper. Hahahah~

Being moody today? or figuring what movie you should watch? Don't waste your money. There's no movie worth watching this season. So. I'm helping you to save your money while still entertain yourself with a short movie. Heard 'Nigahiga' aka Ryan Higa before? I bet most of you did. He is the youtuber who has the most subscribers on youtube. 2 millions! and still increasing. He just uploaded his latest video. Which is almost 35 minutes. It was an exception for youtube to allow people to upload a video more than 10 minutes. Go and watch it!

<3 hahahah~

Angie, I don't know why. I can just tell everything. anything to you. <3 .You can ensure me. and made me feel comfortable to talk to. I just love those talking times~ hahahah~ I hope, as what you've said. i'm lucky enough to meet him.( Don't tell him what have we talked bout~ Wakakakak~)

This is that soh geh. But he just won't admit it! Soh geh~<3

I hope, you're the right one.

I just don't understand why you like this photo? Isshh~

Thoughts

Perfect. Means no more improvement. I like the conquering feeling of improving~

Book Fair

2010-11-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

Finally went to book fair today. Not so crowded today. maybe it's weekday. Didn't bought any books cause MPH didn't join for this fair. So. ended up following Angie pig to read some "skyline" books. Ahahaha~~ And they were nagging to see how i usually treat those promoter that's promoting their English Language course. Hahhahaha~ that was stupid. And Ken Pang that pig! Slept in book fair for an hour! You Pig la!

Xue ling spent 140 bucks for books? woots~ I can't imagine i'm spending so much money on books. Unless it's worth for collection.

Angie! I finally know what was you skyline-ing that day! WTF!hahahahah~~ We'll just continue with our talking when his not here kays? hahahah~ sometimes you can ensure me. I'm not so uneasy now. Thanks.

You! Broke your promise again. We choose to trust you, than Vincent. You seriously disappointed me and Angie. Last time. Seriously. I trust you for the Last time. Please. Don't make us sad again. Please.

Thoughts
当你牵起我时，不要轻易对我做出承诺。我是很固执的。我一点也不可爱。
手链对我的意义真的很重大。给我的人，比我还更重要。谢谢你!<3

Thank God

2010-11-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

Thank god. it's back. I seriously can't take it if its gone.

When i found out it was gone. i was freaked out. Ken Pang. Sorry a, i was so nervous that i don't know what did i answer you in the phone. my mind was blank that time. i can't recall when did it dropped off. cause it was too loose. and i'm too confident with myself that i wouldn't drop it.

i was searching all over my room and bed. Yet. no sign of it. even in my car.

And once again. Thanks a lot a~~~ Angie Pig~~~ Ken Pang~~~ i'm sure you 2 have been running all over the places we've been today to find it. thanks a!!! I love both of you a~

I'm too careless. if next time i lost it again. I'm gonna chop my hands off. i'll seriously have heart attack for losing it. I'm gonna tie that bracelet seriously tight.

Skyline! It's so pointless. more pointless that 'Salt'. Wasted my 2hours.

Thoughts

I almost collapse when i can't see a sign of it. It's too important that i can't afford to lose it. Have to be very careful!

I don't know what to say but thank you and i love you. and ofcourse you too~

Final~

2010-11-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

Yea. Final is in the corner. and i finally start studying now. yea. Start with the subject that i phobia. maths~ it's actually Algo. Algebra & Trigonometry. Yet, it's still maths. isshhh~ So angie pig gave me some idea what was the lecturer talking all the time. She even forces me to do her tutorial.

And owh yeah! Ken Pang! you and angie pig are siblings la! don't deny! your say the same things at the same time. both of your chemistry seriously freaked me out and made me died laughing.Don't deny it again.

And yeah. i seriously appreciate what have your 2 done or planned or even willing to do. No worries. I still love my current life. i'm enjoying it now . and i won't dump your after i've done with my foundation. so angie PIG. don't keep on nagging me for the whole lecture time~

Ken Pang! you seriously can cook wor~~~ Gengz~

And~ i'm a safety driver la~~ i'm seriously very safe while fetching others . its another story while i'm driving myself.. hahahah~ reckless~ I'm a better driver than you Ken Pang~

Seriously have to start do some revision for final. this sem's killing subject its more than last sem.

Thoughts
I wanted to communicate too. it's too hard. we're too alike. and all we can do is fights.
Still. Unsure and uneasy. you do mean it don't you? ensure me.

你听得到

2010-11-21T22:53:00.001+08:00

我想我是太過依賴，在掛電話的剛才，堅持學單純的小孩，靜靜看守這份愛，知道不能太依賴，怕你會把我寵壞，你的香味一直徘徊，我捨不得離開 -《你聽得到》

求你们，别把我给宠坏了。别让我依赖。

你们为我做的已经够多了。

我真的真的真的很感动。

别让我太过舍不得。

别让我忘了独立。

在一面看安琪生日的video一面听‘听海’

就忽然收到那封送错的信息。

你们让我哽咽了。

别担心。

我没有那么软弱。

我还应付得来。

我是谁哦~

所以，谢谢。

我心领了~

我爱你们！

现在你明白我为什么不要你载我了吗？我不想依赖。

Presentation

2010-11-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

UTC +8

A little sneak peak of our preparation for presentation. and after presentation.

Working out last minute's face

I don't know what to describe

Ahaha. gents? or ladies?

Monkey!

Thanks a~ Ken Pang~~

Ahahahahahah~

Car washing

2010-11-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

Woots.. finally washed my car after a few hundred years. Hahahaha~ I was planning to wash it at today noon . after that take a rest and start with my annoying CS assignment.

Planning was planning. i was ended up dragged out. again. by the 2 pigs. Yea. the two pigs that appears in my blog very frequent currently. Ken Pang didn't even told me he was planning to go wangsa maju for a lunch. still planning was planning. due to some reason. we went to ampang. For lunner? lunch and dinner. hahahah~ Owh yeah. and finally i know why my elbow was pain while bathing. cause i've scratched my elbow while washing my car. And i didn't even notice it. Wakakakaka~ Angie's quote ' you robot a? no feel one?' that reminds me of my childhood. Yea. to the adults, i was weird. I won't cry whenever i fell down. no matter how injured am i. and there was one time, during standard one. i fell into a drain. which is almost 3 quarter of my height during that time. when i'm falling down. my class teacher saw it. and she was expecting some crying or shouting from this kid. yet. i didn't. i climb up and walk away. what causes i remember this scene so much was her expression. she was shocked. and she asked' why you don't cry?' WTF! hahahaha~ why should i? Issh. far from topic.

It is not a fatal bruise. common one. your 2 too exagerrate.

and yea. they forced me to ditch my friend to count down with them. SORRY A~~ don't kill me please~~ i will compensate..

and yea. wtf is wrong with me today. after i washed my car. i lost my spectacles. i was finding all over my car and yet. nothing. so i decided to walk back to the place i washed my car. and while opening the gate, i dropped my car key into the drain! WTF! WTF! WTF! i can't see where it dropped cause i don't have spectacles. and my eyes is handicapped in that type of lightning. so i have to call my mum for help. my remote was spoiled. Ahahaha~ stupid huh? regret for being short sightness man. And i found my spectacles. Dengzz~ it was at my room all the time. WTF! running all around and spoiling my remote for nothing.

And yea. Oi! your two pigs. don't fever can a? I will bear my tuition fee la. DON'T XIAO ! keep those money for your future studies or whatever.

Thoughts
I appreciate. for letting me knowing you two. and everything your have done. i'm seriously moved. But i can't promise to stay. Sorry.

Doubt doubt doubt doubt doubt. you meant it or you don't? still feeling unsure, uneasy.

Photos

2010-11-21T00:11:00.000+08:00

Photos i've promised.

Balloons~

A weirdo that spent 10 bucks for balloons

3,2,1 and those balloons. again~ Zzzz..

Kid~

Loves one

Miss you, you, you and you.

Loves<3

'Lawuita' The highlight musical concert

Angie Pig and Ken Pang

2 pigs

why? why? why? why?

Pigs~~

Angie Pig

Tan cha wok

Blur

Ahahahahah~ Sei gay mui~

Geli a~~~

Picture of the day?

Monkeys

2010-11-20T22:12:00.000+08:00

屬猴的人性格很奇怪，有時候超愛說話，有時候可以一天不說話，高興的時候，會拼命的說話，不高興的時候，一句話也不說。屬猴的人不愛記仇，但誰對他好誰對他不好，他還是記得很清楚的。

屬猴的人把真實的自己藏於半夜的寂靜和午夜明朗的笑聲中。

屬猴的人最注重的就是安全感。希望被保護，卻常常是一個人。

屬猴的人不容易愛上一個人，但一旦愛上便很難自拔。一旦受傷，總是被傷的很深，只有幾個貼心朋友。

屬猴的人是個很愛撒嬌的孩子、屬猴的喜歡海，喜歡顧影自憐。喜歡自己舔傷口。

屬猴的人性格很古怪而又孤僻，他們會突然在大笑中沈默，感覺悲傷。

屬猴的人心裏想什麼從來不說，別人也猜不到。

屬猴的人嘴上說不在乎、心裏卻早已悲涼、心裏的那把火早已熄滅。

屬猴的人選擇了沈默、不在像以前那樣摯熱的去追求某樣東西。

屬猴的人總是很愛回憶、回憶以前的點點滴滴、以前的大小事只是默默的想著。

屬猴的人天生敏銳，與生具備的第六感，對人的內心有超乎尋常的洞察力。但他們會把這些東西放在心裏，他可以把你的眼神、內心看得很清楚，但卻不會告訴你，他用旁觀的態度判定虛偽。

屬猴的人不懂甜言蜜語，不屑拍馬屁。

屬猴的人本能的排斥虛偽和做作的人。

屬猴的人不會真的發火，就算生氣，也很快忘記！

屬猴的人只對真正懂他的人，展示他的創造性，他的情緒他變得冷淡就證明他開始對你重新審視，當他越是沈默，就代表他越是生氣。

屬猴的人可能看起來很凶，其實內心是最柔軟的。

屬猴的人看起來很冷淡，但那只是保護自己的方法。

屬猴的人很重視友情，但被傷害後絕對不再友善。

屬猴的人很容易被感動，但感動中又保有理智。

屬猴的人可能看起來很堅強，其實是最脆弱的。

屬猴的人可能很愛哭，但他的哭並不代表認輸。

屬猴的人可能看起來很笨，其實大智若愚。

屬猴的人可能做事很毛躁，但內心很細心。

屬猴的人天生敏感和細膩，卻會用心鑒定。

屬猴的人懦弱，受了傷之後，只知道躲在無人的地方獨自哭泣。

屬猴的人虛偽，明明已經心痛到無法呼吸，還要在最愛的他面前假裝堅強；不輕易讓任何人走進他自己獨自的世界

屬猴的人笑容，無論開心或者悲傷，都是一臉笑容，笑容，是他們偽裝自己最好的武器，

屬猴的人眼淚，從不輕易讓人看見，他的淚，從來只有她知道，只是，誰又知道，在他們的笑臉背後，埋藏的是深深的悲傷，笑的越開心，傷的越深。

屬猴的人退縮，屬猴的，永遠不會輕易說愛或者喜歡，除非真的喜歡到了極點，否則，要他們表白幾乎不可能，但是，一旦表白，就是不遺餘力的付出，即使知道這樣做換來的結果可能是深深的傷害…

屬猴的人，永遠只可能做同一件事兩次，表白也一樣，同一個人，只可能聽到他們向你最深的表白兩次，兩次之後，就是絕對的安靜了…即使仍然深愛著，他們也沒有勇氣再說第三遍我愛你…他們的退縮，不能重複一件事第三次。

屬猴的人愚蠢，不懂的怎麼挽回深愛的人的心，只能自己心中默默的祝福和祈禱。

受了傷，只會在角落獨自忍受錐心的痛。

屬猴的人：體貼第一名，愛吃第一名，愛家第一名，孝順第一名，多愁善感第一名。

Copied from wei. Well~ monkeys. read these.. so true. don't you think so?

Thoughts

Still. quarrels. Again? i'm seriously tired of these.

Unsure. Uneasy. I don't know what's on your mind. (arghhh.. i'm having lee wah lung's 20 sec disease.)

Good Morning~

2010-11-20T05:12:00.001+08:00

Yea.. i'm the stupid ones who woke up 3.30 am just to study logarithms. still not familiar with the base changing parts. Urghh~~ it's been almost one hour. Maths is seriously killing my brain cell.. Die Die Die la. Hope i can drive safely later~ hahahaha~ Isshh.. seriously felt like sleeping now. thats why i'm blogging. wakakakaka~ to keep my mind awake.

So sorry for letting you down. i don't mean it. But its just too late to make changes. I'll try. but there's only 50 to 50 possibility. and .No worries. i will take good care of myself.

Angie Pig! Jia you a~~~ We can do it~~ Kill Algo !!!

Thoughts
We just can't communicate well. don't we? tired and sick of quarreling. sorry.

谢谢你~ 我很开心。也很感动。谢谢。

Impressive. Happy Birthday Mel~

2010-11-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

Marking down marking down. Wondering will i miss out any part.

14/11
Went back to my primary school. for the charity sale. Well. bought my 2 pig from college to there. Your 2 too curios bout me ? Lolx... Meet back a few long lost friends. I'm easily recognized huh?even my standard one class teacher still able to call out my name. Woots. 12 years man! a decade! Well. there's an advice if you can't recognize your long lost friend. If he or she is watching at you or smiling at you. Just give him or her a smile back. if they seriously know who are you. they'll step up and say' hi! remember me? i'm XXX. 'then ya'll know. If you have mistaken. Never mind~ it's polite to smile to a stranger what. Yes, there was this girl named Looi Man Kay. Changed her home number and handphone too. After the award ceremony . Non of us meet her . In my memory, she's having short hair. taller than me, with spec. When i saw her, without spec, still having short hair. BUT, not taller than me anymore.. Woohoo~ i've grown up~~ I've seriously forgotten what was i suppose to wrote. cause its from a different mood. those draft was made on tuesday night. And now it's thrusday. moods do changes kays?

Went to a highlight musical concert that i've missed last year. Last year was 'A Long Hair' . the title for this year it's 'Lawuita' . If last year's performance was awesome as this. I would seriously regret like hell for ditching them~ Since it was a highlight concert. It'll have some commercial for those sponsorship company. Well~ since the whole thing it's mainly for charity, i wouldn't mind any of these. It was all about mindset. If you were expecting they'll totally show out the whole story. So sorry. you're wrong. It's a highlight concert man! It's something like trailer for movie. What the hell am i crapping? Duh. kays. i was seriously impressed by the character named Mimic. Yup. It's a he. But! he was seriously impressive that he can take over the toll to control the emotions of the audience and he got the ability to catch your sight. Despite what was he wearing and how to he look. The way he talk and even walk with full of confidence that can made your sight locked on him. Damn. why am i talking like a fan of him. Well~ conclusion is HE IS SERIOUSLY AN IMPRESSIVE ACTOR~ So, maybe for the sake of seeing him perform in the musical concert. Yea, i'll go to the concert on next year, febuary~ hahahahah~ Anyone thats interested in joining me. yea, text me. we'll go together. i bet you won't regret for paying for the ticket. Mindset kays? it's for charity and some awesome actors and singers.

15/11
Cant recall what happened . Owh Yeah! It was my Computing Studies midterm. Damn you Yong Chien! Cant remember what you've learned!! So, depend on myself then~ AND i was planning to wake up in midnight again to study. When i woke up, and saw angie text-ed me saying ' you dont have to wake up and study at midnight. tml afternoon oni exam. we still gt time at morning' WOOHOO~~ so i continued sleeping. And I was SO WRONG! there was like a bunch of subtopic's subtopic's subtopic to memorize. but luckily before midterm started she finally took out a useful tutorial that Allan Ho used most of the question in the paper. But i still screwed my flow chart. Dengz~ 15 marks a~ my flow chart was like a piece of crap! i don't even know what should be my outcome when i read it back. Hahahahah~~

Oi! You! Ken Pang! If i found out you smoke again, i seriously don't want to talk to you anymore! Don't break your promise kays? I still trust you. I know you would need time. End of this year kays? by the end of this year, totally get rid of it. Don't disappoint me again, kays?

And hey kids. i was so so so so so sorry for being so so so so so late. let your waited about 2 hours. i'll compensate kays?

16/11
Presentation . Well. don't really feel like mentioning it. It was not so eyes catching compare to another group. But still. Proud of myself for choosing a good timing . We was so lucky that we chose a slot earlier . the continuing group has a lot of clashing with our group. Woots~ And yea. since it was required by Teck Jia. All formal clothings. This was seriously killing! I don't wear skirt. And I don't LIKE to wear formal . Why? cause it's hard for me to get an fitting shirt. Even i got the smallest size, yet still it's too large. And. this time. i get to wear kinda fit. Mostly credits to Ken Pang. i didn't know you know how to pin a shirt nicely. Wow~ not to forget angie pig and caiying who was trying so hard to pin it nicely. I'm moved~ thanks~

17/11 and today
Before i mention my situation . i'll simply describe it with a simple physic theory. when a rubber band is pulled tightly for too long, once you let go it'll not go back to the same condition right? it'll take sometime to recover . well~ that describes me. I was planning to rest for the whole damn day. yea. that was planning. was woke up by yen jie's call. then there comes what i've predicted. Sore throat, cough, headache, slight fever. As usual. And those pigs from college won't stop nagging me. they strive to drag me out from my house. But i was moved after i knew they drove all the way to here just to see me. hahahah~ Haiz~ that leads the story to today. where i should recover by wed, and dragged till thrus still having slight fever and headache. but yea~ i don't look sick though. Vicky's quote was seriously funny . he said' oi! you sick d. can you have some sick look?' hahahahah~~

And today was seriously not my day. for the first time, i fell down from a staircase. ouch~ my waist and elbow was knocked on the staircase. my elbow was so pain that i almost burst into tears. luckily i didn't . And thanks again to Ken Pang who was there. again. but now yea. i can still type this post with both of my hand, provided not using my thumb. hahahah~~

Melvin Yong! How dare you ditch us when we've planned a birthday party for you! Damn you! don't wanna drive you home anymore. you gay nurse~

I think i've seriously missed out many part. forgive me. i'm having my algo midterm on this saturday and i still have no idea what was logarithms about. Sorry meng gor. i've forgotten all those logs you have taught~

It's a seriously long and boring post with no pictures and only words. Bear with me kays? i promise. i'll upload those photos by tomorrow.

should seriously improve my chinese. it's getting worser each day. or should i consider writing a post in chinese?

Erm.... Nah~ time killing~

Thoughts
Learning how to communicate with him. A long way to learn.
你看穿我，但不要拆穿我，好吗？i know how to take good care of myself.

If you ask me' wasn't that what you've dreamed of?
i'll answer ' No, it was your dream'
If you would ask. If.

happy birthday~

2010-11-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

Gonna write it all down before my memories fade away.

12/11
Was rushing for my Malaysian studies assignment. Went breakfast with pigs. addicted to a song. planning for a blast. And! once in my life time wrap a present. Yea, you got my first time. And i have to wrap it until 3 am. Seriously. it's easier to unwrap then wrapping. whoever doesn't knows how to wrap a present. wakakaka~ don't wrap then. It's time killing, effort killing plus brain cell killing! What kills my brain cell? writing notes. i actually planned to write 18 notes. Then ended up 13. cause I have to google translate almost every chinese word i wrote. WTF! damn how did i got an B+ for chinese in SPM.

13/11
Should woke up on 6. damn! i've haven got a good night sleep for like a whole damn week! ended up woke up on 6.30. went to Ken pang's house to prepare something for Angie. It was a cheese cake initially. then we notice that we lack of a bunch of things for the cheese cake. so ended up with some jelly or something similar. well~ succeed for 50%. another 50% ruined. all those surprises started at 10.30. where angie has been starving cause i've promised her for breakfast~Teck Jia and Chin Wei purposely made a trip to school just to celebrate with her. Woots.. she was seriously moved by us. yea, you should be. Lunch at Passion. Finally fulfilled her craving for Passion. hahas. Drove up to Venice hill for nothing. Yea, pointless. Never mind, as long as i'm happy with it. Ditched them for kaki corner. Again. Why ditching part always at kaki corner ?

I did planned to write this post in chinese to improve my chinese. but ended up i'm feeling like i'm direct translating from english. All google translate to get the words. hahahahah~~~

Some one told me. if you planned to leave. Don't leave any markings on them. Sorry, it's too late. i've left too many. i'm just too selfish.

Thoughts
I knew i've shocked you. cause you haven't been seeing my weakness for so long.
This is a promise to myself.
You'll never get to see my weakness again. Never.

坚强久了，软弱不下了。不。是不被允许软弱了。

Killingly Exhausted

2010-11-11T22:18:00.001+08:00

yea, it was seriously killingly exhausted. I even doubt did i had a so-called good night sleep. Should have knocked down on 8pm yesterday and was hanging around until 10pm. so thought i should be able to have enough sleep if i postpone and wake up at 3 am. duh. i did woke up at 3.but in the middle, i was 'awoke' by my sister. Yea. during 12am. And who ever knew my bad habit is i have to stay awake for another 30 min before i can sleep back again. so in total i don't know how many hours did i slept.

Doubt can i drive safely to my college today? yup! i drove myself to college safe and sound. Woots. I kept my mind alert and don't let it blank. But after those driving time. my mind easily goes blank after that. Serious! It goes blank very frequent. The most legendary part its when my mind goes blank, Again. Charmaine was passing me the attendance from another roll. i was opening my eyes, but i didn't hand out my hand to get it. Teck jia, heard charmaine called me, then he pushed my hand and i still don't have a respond like someone has fell asleep.but he saw my eyes were opening big. so he pushed me again , harder and called my name . i finally came to conscious. hahahah. His explanation for this situation was ' sleeping with eyes opening' hahahahah~~

Isshhh.. this was stupid. i fell asleep during exam. yea. fell asleep during figuring out answer. didn't notice myself is asleep until my pen dropped down. so during the whole period, my pen dropped and dropped. hahaha~ who the hell would fall asleep during the hectic time you should brain storm and figure out answer. WTF!

And i don't know whether i'm conscious while typing this post. Cause feeling like many typo in it. Never mind. read it the way you want. i don't know what am i writing too.

Angie tyo, can change your message tone mou?? can?? can?? can?? cause i still haven figure out what tone should i change... don't brain storm me lei... Later i go blank again while driving you.

Ken Pang! DON'T SMOKE! Do as what you've promised. 坚持！I trust you. Don't disappoint me. If not . i don't wanna accompany you go CE class anymore.

Thoughts
Can be less stubborn? sometimes i just tend to get clingy on certain stuff. I'm just too stubborn that even myself can't handle.Arshhhh~~

Finally

2010-11-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

Yup, finally i've hit on other people's car. Your sure be thinking i did speeding. No. i totally didn't. My mind was blank by that time. it's really blank that even i saw the car is lighting the brake light i still did not step on my brake. WTF. the moment my conscious came back was when i heard 'Bang' . This was insane. immediately my mind was thinking. how should i negotiate with him, expecting how much i have to pay and my P license. It was so lucky that he came down to check his car and tell me never mind and left. That was seriously lucky! maybe his thinking, another new P license driver, forget about it. woots.

Aiks, ditched my seniors for finding my friends lappy. i was lucky enough to have my seniors to help me running around and climb the school like monkeys to help me find my stolen camera. well, we didn't found it but i seriously was moved by them. i hope she can feel so from us too.

Angie tyo,
你在我面前没有必要伪装，就做原本的你。不必为了别人而活。我也被排斥过，但是我也很幸运的在我人生每一个阶段遇到很好很好的人。

P/s: 奇怪为什么我不写英文？因为你只看一半。

there was many things on my mind before i typed those chinese words. after typing it, i'm out of words now.

Ken Pang, can don't make me break my promise again? No more pool la~~

P/s: can don't want cute mou????

Thoughts
什么是所谓的幸福？
是一份礼物？
还是生活态度？

I just love being pampered by you. don't you?

Fortune

2010-11-09T20:49:00.000+08:00

Yup, its fortunately that i can still be here to crap. It is fortunate that you don't have to see my face on newspaper. And i'm fortunate that i can still be here to warn other drivers too.

DON'T DRIVE TOO FAST! yes. don't! maintain it at 80 to 100km/h. no matter what car you're having.

I've almost meet a fatal accident today. yea, today. how come? cause i was rushing back to my college as they say the whole damn team is waiting. And i'm driving 120. So what? 120 is no big deal. But the problem is i'm driving proton saga. old model. And the limit of the car is 180-200. the road limit is 90. Duh.. craps. so when i was going to reach the 2nd toll, batu 9 toll. the car that's speeding infront of me gave an emergency brake and directly turn to another lane in a very fast way? I didn't notice there was a weightlifting machine there to repair the road sign of the opposite road. I was so lucky that i get to cut into the 2nd lane before i hit on that machine. If you happen to pass by that area during 11 to 12pm. ya'll know how big the machine was. It was so close! ~~that i thought i'll never survive.~~ Well, this incident also causes my mood was hyped up for the whole damn day. I don't know why. maybe cause the blood vessels or nerve was scared they'll never get to work again when i'm driving back. Hahahaha~~~

yea, an almost accident again when i'm driving home. Don't wanna mention it anymore.

Well, something did cheered my mood. I'm just slightly dropped out from border line. Some smarter ones dropped further than me~ WOOHOO~~ I'm not that bad~~

Angie Tyo! Kinda depressed huh currently? i saw the notes you wrote you pig. Maybe its a turning point. no worries. Academic doesn't says all. heard this idiom? All work no play makes Jack a dull boy. you're just picking up what you've left during secondary school. but not too over then it's no harm.

Woots~ gonna wake up in the midnight to study my gen bio midterm. Ken Pang aka fei zi! i know ya'll be reading this! So be prepare!

Yea, and i've said no outing for tomorrow. but ended up. Aiks. Reject? Nah~ since those seniors missed my kiddo monkey style. Or did they called it taogei? Gonna get home as early as i can.

Thoughts
Because you lived and breath
Because you made me believe in myself when nobody else can help.

Mark downs

2010-11-08T21:57:00.000+08:00

Should mark down stuffs for yesterday and today.

Seriously, our gang of people has been going through some hard times since graduated. and leaving each other. Misunderstandings, break ups, heart breaking, quarrels and being accused . too many to be mentioned. maybe it's because of our type is not widely accepted ? its seriously heart aching to see everyone of them going through these, while i can't be beside them and tell them ' hey, i'm here. my shoulders are ready too.' yea, i've not been updated for a long time. Those stories are way too long to catch up. but. Do remember you got us whenever you need someone.

p/s: you've seriously gained weight~ wakakakakak~~~

Well, just get to know my Gen chem 2 midterm mark. Yea, i've ruined it. i nearly reach the border line. damn it! but what i get to comfort myself is. Woah, i've scored higher marks then someone who spend more time on the paper. But when the lecture mentioned she tuned down the marks for the third question and marked up for the other 2. My mood goes way down the hill! Dengz~ the only question i've focused is question 3, AND YOU TUNED THE HELL DOWN THE MARK? WTF WTF WTF WTF N WTF!

Yea yea.. i owe you a pun ye cheong~ hahahaha~ happy now?

Thoughts
People only choose what they willing or want to see huh? Don't trust your eyes sometimes. Why? cause maybe you have short-sightness. Hahahahaha~~~

Outings

2010-11-07T01:02:00.000+08:00

Seriously thought of i should blog down everything before my brain is jammed by lab reports. Just came back from pool. AGAIN. and when i've finished up with bathing and stuffs the time is 12.15 am. Good morning folks~

I slept at 1.30am yesterday and i don't know for the sake of what i woke up 6am? why? while i should stick with my dreams till 8.45 am only wake up to fetch my sister to tuition and continue to sleep until 10 am? WTF! Fine, so decided to start with my lab report. And when proceed until part A methods. Again interrupted by outings. Went to mines with fei zi and my sis. ( Today i shouldn't be going one gah~~~)

Ei fei zi, seriously you should spend more time on IT stuff ehh. Find some time and let's go Low Yat to walk a whole damn day. You'll improve. Yea la.. Its you la. Ken Pang aka fei zi. DIET A~~

Reached home about 5 . And i THOUGHT i should be seriously continue on with my lab report. After dinner, rushed upstairs to continue my craps. AND meng gor text-ed over . For pool, AGAIN! Dai gor~ u addicted kah? Cannot reject tim lo! Promised myself not to touch pool until my hand recover. And still i broke my promise. Again!

And now i have to stay up for the whole night to finish up my craps. To prevent ANY OUTINGS AGAIN for tomorrow.

Lai~ who haven't complete their lab report or assignments. Lai skype~ we tong xiu.. Wakakakak~~

And i should seriously cut down my outings. Monday can't skip .So, no more yumchas on next tuesday, No PM on next wednesday, no more pool on next thursday, only left paint ball on friday. And kaki corner on saturday and lastly sungai besi on sunday! Yesh a~ That's all~

Grandparents

2010-11-06T09:45:00.001+08:00

Seriously , currently have been way too much outings. So yesterday decided to join my dad's lunch with my paternal side grandparents. but i'm not really that close to them. That's why, there's no chemistry between us. but i'll still try to communicate with them. yea, it's kinda hard when you're used to those open minded grandma, my maternal side grandma. They are typical traditional type of grandparents.well, my grandpa did changed his mind set after his stroke.

But today i've found out that they were quite cute actually. Hahas. Since we've went out with them. dad decided to buy some groceries for them. And there was a big apple doughnut branch which having the open kitchen concept. My grandma looking non-stop at those workers making the doughnuts. She was seriously interested in trying it. But whenever i say, choose a few. i'll buy you. She'll keep on shaking her head saying ' Nah, it's too sweet , i don't want' If she's my another grandma, i'll directly tell her, 'oi go choose la, faster, later i regret u pay it yourself!' Hahas. Then my daddy seriously can't stand anymore. He directly choose 2 doughnuts, paid and put in front of her. 'Nah, eat' WOW~~ She did ate la. Hahahah~

After dropping them home, my dad brought me to BMW retail shop. yea, Xiao liao one la.

Dad. seriously i appreciate you for offering me that car. But i still hope to get it with my own ability. And the 535 or what. 700k! It's way too expensive kays? And i don't really like it's design. Thanks anyways.

And. Hey, hao yong~~ Happy birthday man. AND Happy deepavali~~ hahahahaha~~ Sorry for not joining your to sunway. Next time yumchas and pool again lah. Wakakaka~~

Aiks~I've broke my own promise. WTF.

Dengz, i seriously hate guys that simply flirt while they don't know who the hell are you. plus i just walk by? Die far far away can? Ruined my mood.

Good Mood

2010-11-05T00:44:00.000+08:00

Seriously thought of why am i blogging so often currently? Maybe cause i was inspired by my friend. yup , wei's post inspired me. Blogging is the only way you can mark down every moment you wanted to remember while your brain has too many craps that will lead you to forget. whenever you're down, doomed or feel like jumping down from some where else, read back your posts. you'll burst into laughter.

Why i have so many typo last time? what was on my mind that i'll post something so stupid like this? Why this why that? even some of the photos you don't even know where the hell have you put in you hard disc. yea. It is fun. and stupid. Hahaha~~

And from now on, i should seriously take more photos of my college friends since wei says seldom saw my photos. Hahas.

Went for check ups, And yeah~ good news~ I'm safe and sound to crap here. The only one thing still not on standard. Oh well~ It doesn't really matters. Seriously, not all government servant are that rude. My doctor was nice. Maybe cause she's still under going practical? Hahahahah~

Pray very hard for me~ I don't wanna retake Gen Chem 2~~ And Gen Bio~~

And, hey, i seriously do not believe in love at first sight buddy. Your mum never taught you to not judge a book by it's cover? You don't even know how i look like in reality. SO, keep your sweet talks to yourself. Don't stalk me kays?

Doomed

2010-11-03T18:46:00.000+08:00

Yup, as my title mentioned. My chemistry midterm is doomed. There's only 3 structure questions, but i can't even complete one. Not even one. When the time i've decided to pass up my paper, i've made up my mind to take SUPP. Yup, extra 200 bucks for SUPP. I didn't even expect i'll get myself into this situation.

Why? Maybe cause i've woke up god damn early during midnight and study for it. I've slept less than 4 hours just to study these craps that i can't even sure that i'll get 1 mark for it. If i'm telling you, it doesn't really matters. You can be sure that i'm drunk or ready to jump off from some where else.

So, remember to get my signature before i died. Yea yea, crapping. Still got mood to crap means i can still withstand it~ yeah~~~

I'm gonna sleep like nobody's business tonight. Don't call me or text me or stalk me or nudge me or what so ever.

Happy birthday

2010-11-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

Thought of. yes, i should write this post before it's 12. So, happy birthday Fabian... i gave you the blast. So this tells you that, Don't ever try to forget me if i get to enter IMU.

IMU.
A thought of staying here ran through my mind after the so-called celebration. haha.. it proves that i'm day dreaming while driving~ But wait. i'm still safe and sound to crap at here kays? The words 1 year kept reminding me, That's all you'll have here, 1 year And 3 sems. I'll never even mention bout regretting for knowing anyone of them over here. But, am i too selfish for letting remember me too much? Or get influenced too much? I wouldn't like the feeling whenever we do an action and we'll say ' hey, got influenced by XXX har?' but the person is not beside you to tell ' hey, copyright a!' Haha~

I'm just too stubborn to change my mind set. Some times the running away plan will pop up whenever i got emo.
BUT as i've said . my mood runs ups and downs like roller coaster. Just a simple youtube idiot video will do all the work. Wakakakaka~~

Will upload some photos since i haven't upload any photos like for centuries? hahahahaha

Can't see what is written on it? it say, ' Gay Lou, Legally 18'

What are friends for~ Hahahahaha

Thought i'm the only one messing around? See! Evidence~

Lolx.. Should seriously stop thinking bout those craps.

Wanna light up your day? Try youtube.

Go and check on Nigahiga's latest video~ It's hilarious~

Thoughts

2010-10-28T18:58:00.000+08:00

My mood goes like roller coaster. Up and down in a blink of eye. Yea. Just a sentence made me thought deep.

Why can't PURE friends relationship exist within male and female? huh?

Bluffing? Nuh~ i've proven it kays? Lai Wai Meng, Lee Wah Lung, Melvin Yong And others. Yea.. PURE friends that i can crap, just cry on their shoulder when i need, shout like nobody's business, fight like brothers, discuss their girl, my boy. Gay with'em. Too many to list down.

i should seriously declare that, Yea, i'm taken.

Taken by who?

Craps la u. Myself la.. abuthen?

Will not spend time into relationship part, while i don't feel like spending it. Gimme time kays? I need plenty of TIMES to start a new one.. hahahaha~~

Why time? Cause i'm paying my yumcha debts~ hahahahah~~ No time for relationship~~ hhahahahahahah~~ 3years debt a~~

I'm just having some blogging mood. So just crap la~

This is so true

2010-10-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest,
jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authoritive,
famous person...always want to be and regarded as first on people position,
they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self
confident people!

You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get

marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who
have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies
in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession
in the future. If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will
have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the
local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and
well talented in numerous issues!! But in your life you will always have
some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. This
is undercover!! Coz of your smart behaviour you will be hated by some people
too...

Your family life is very cool, you will have a very nice partner &
wonderful children... You are pioneer, independent & original...

I knew you hate me.. so?

DENGZZZ~~~ Stop getting influenced... Woooots~~ Stop the god damn emo part.. Lalalalalallaa....

Again

2010-10-23T18:57:00.000+08:00

Yea, i've opened my blog to public again. Figuring out why did it went private previously? Because someone was annoyed by my post. and i felt, yea, just let it be private. i know ya'll hate me for going it public again. So what? you were important that i wanted to care your feelings. BUT not now ANYMORE. totally non of my concern. Making rumors about me won't do any good for you, dumb ass. People who knew me well enough will just think that you're an idiot ostrich talking with your bird brain!

No matter i'm hanging out with who it's also my choice. even caused of you, i have to stay away from best friend? WTF! What theory is this? I knew you before i knew him. I mixed around with him like i always do with others. ~~what for you have to restrict this and that?~~ And how many times i've told you? huh? or even made a fucking long explanations. Have the fucking guts to text me and scold the hell out of me? Why don't you just use your ankle to think before you text?

So, GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!

Dengz... i just don't like to get emo. And what's on earth that people like to get me involve in those damn emo stuff in combo..

Woots... right hand got injured. Why? Cause i've played pool for consecutively 3 days.. Wooohooo~~~ this is insane~~

Aiks.. i've played too hard....

Friends are adopting my bad habits.. hahahahaha... pulling people's bag stripe

Don't freak out.. my blog geh pictures memang all missing.. hahaha

yea... doubt doubt doubt doubt doubt.. True? Not true? Let it be then~

Dreams

2010-09-05T23:41:00.002+08:00

Chasing dreams. as if i can. and i will. someone told me, you're selfish to chase your own dreams. but. why? it was all i ever wanted. i got the faith in my self that i can do it by my own. no doubt i've doubt my self before. Selfish. a very harsh word. He said , you have friends , best friends and family here. how can you dump them aside. i know, i know. does it brings the meaning that i have to bury my dreams and please everyone? i've even planned if my parents do not allow me. i'll go. i'll go by myself. i can plan everything and leave. but. i. can't . i'll miss everyone of them like hell. i can't stand that i'm the one that dumped them. What should i do? Just leave like what i wanted . or stay?

Sorry

2010-07-31T11:29:00.002+08:00

“对不起，我知道我错了，原谅我好吗？”

这样的道歉已经不是第一次了，

你每次都说你已经知道错了，

但又有那一次你是真的知道了？

你只知道不停地道歉，

却始终都不知道自己是错在哪里，

也不知道我是为了什么生你的气...

嘴上不说是要让你自己反省自己，

而你却把我的苦心当成无理取闹，

觉得我是有意在刁难你，气你...

原本就已经平息下来的怒火，

却总是因为你的不自觉而发飙，

别一直问我你到底做错了什么，

不是我不愿意告诉你什么，

而是我被你气得说不出口了，

其实真正让我难过的，

不是因为你犯了什么错，

而是在你犯错后不懂得反省，

连自己错在哪里都不知道...

真正的认错是要拿出悔改的诚意，

如果你是因为怕失去而开口认错，

那并不是认错，只是简单的敷衍，

这样的认错并不值得我的原谅...

除了认错，你就不能明白我为什么生气吗？

其实生气的人要的不只是一句对不起，

而是要犯错的人能真正明白自己的错...

Copied from Fabian Lo's post

Nice, that's why sorry is not really the only right word for girls nowadays.

I'm barred~

2010-07-22T22:03:00.004+08:00

Yea~ as what mentioned in my title. I'm barred from my MF003 Basic concept of maths Final exam.. Not taking final? Never mind. Take again this sub la next sem. Never mind ~ Extra one sub only wat. The most important is PAYING! Woots. WTF! I don't think any of my friend gets barred on the first semester. So when they saw my name on the barred listing that came out on this Monday. All so nervous lo..

Ei Ei.. You;ve been barred from final leh?

Barred? For??

It states due to attendance.

gan jiong lo...

Letcha see the barred listing

Closer view of it?

See?? My name.. and ID it's correct too~~

yea.. my camera sucks.. so?

SO~ i'm being barred in my first sem.. Yesh a~ record~

ABCD

2010-06-22T23:11:00.003+08:00

I'm losing my strength.

I'm not that aggressive anymore.

I'm losing strength to face pressure.

I hope is temporary.

Where's my strength source?

I don't really know what makes me down currently.

Assignment? Non-stop exams every week? Maths?

I'm browsing youtube more frequently.

Maybe it cause of you. You seriously made me disappointed.

So-called friend. Fuck off kay? You don't deserve.

I don't really like to use the word fuck off on you.

But you have challenged my limitation again and again.

I think it's enough.

Thats all i can take.

Go back to your elementary world. Stop barking .

It's annoying.

This post is so not my style. Arghh.. Nvm.Sick people are more sensitive...

Lalalalalala~ gotta study for my midterm again... Zzzzzz.... Gonna update soon~ gua....... Plus. i don't know what title to put. Cincai la.

HAHAHA!!!

2010-05-16T23:01:00.002+08:00

Alpha Kenny Body!

Don't get it?

Repeat a few more times.

Still don't get it??

Say it more faster,

more faster!

Wtf...

Hahaha...

Got it now?

You're seriously sick!

Psycho!

2010-05-16T01:41:00.002+08:00

亲爱的

当你把不确定的事说出口

你就必须付上责任。

当看着一对看好的情侣因信任，

渐行渐远，

很可悲。

在没确定状况之前

告白，

也让大家回不去从前了。

确定了，

才做吧。

Aiks.

2010-05-15T00:44:00.002+08:00

In a freaking bad mood now.

HOW COULD WONG CHOONG HAN LOSE??!!

Seriously can't accept the fact.

And Lee Chong Wei too.

Wtf..

Melvin Yong! Cheer me up on Monday.

Argghhhh.....

Finally

2010-05-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

Finally settled down my timetable and craps. So.. I'm having some blogging mood now. And my homework it's still not done yet. Since my class until 9.30 only for tomorrow. I'll blog some crap bout college. First, college was not as fun as i expected. CAUSE EVERY HOMEWORK COUNTS! And baru first week the lecturer already announced the first assignment? Wtf. I'm still like dreaming in class. And she announces , this will be your first assignment. Har? Fine. this week baru 2nd week. BLUE MONDAY. lagi one assignment. i haven't even start to discuss the damn first one.. Arsshhh... I wasn't even that hardworking during form 5.

then our common communication tools it's not FB. it's phone? I'm worrying my bill now. And i seriously need a compass at block C. It's confusing man. i must average get lost for twice a day. urgghhh... every door looks the same and the number seems like turning every time. Plus. walking to block C had compensate my quota for the exercise I'm suppose to done for the whole week. aiks. sometimes, my impatient caused me to climb stair for 4 floors.

Well, for my image in my class .. Fuyoh... haha.... All positive... Good girl... hahaha...As long as they don't add my account. my image is maintained. hahahahaha....

And i found out something, my face is easily being recognized. Baru meet for once during orientation and they still recognize me. This means i should not tak zui people. Lolx.

damn tired now. crap again when i got mood.

烦

2010-04-28T23:20:00.003+08:00

不要太过over..

不要再逼我对你说重话。

我不想。

我的忍耐是有限度的。

你。

真的很烦。

我再也没有耐性了。

适而可止吧。

你真的很无聊。

认清自己和我的关系。

要不然朋友也没得做了。

So?

2010-04-25T20:21:00.002+08:00

我样子就是那样跩啊。。

So?

我不笑就是那样欠打啊。。

So what？

关你的屁事啊？

样子是我妈生的，她满意就好。

不到你管。

心情不好，不想笑。不行吗？

我也有情绪的ok?

一定要拿着牙签顶着笑容对你吗？

不要看到我这个样子？

不要跟我们出来啦。。

下次搞清楚状况才说话。

United Nations

2010-04-21T22:11:00.003+08:00

Wow. I just found out, my genes are united nations. hahas. Just now was skype-ing with my yi. then i saw that she haven't took out her lens . so i asked her to do so cause she has been wearing it for like 12 hours plus?

She says, i took out very early liao lo.

Har? You're still having blue colors in your eyes wo?( cause she's somebody who seriously a shopaholic AND in )

Aiya, it's my eyes color..

Wait.. i remember it's grey. how come it became blue?

i don't know also. it stared to change last year.

WOW... Like twilight's vampire.. hahahahaha... eyes are changing colors without the color lenses.

Then she told me. maybe it's cause of the genes.. Hmm.. GENES?
So now i finally knew my body it's containing what genes. Firstly, ofcourse it's Chinese, then Nyonya, then England?? then Indonesia. WTF... United nations man..

Then i asked my mum to confirm. She even told me somthing freaking funny.

She says when she was small, she went to Singapore during new year, every year. Then she has to visit a bunch of her grand aunties. And those GRANDAUNTIES are ang mo? with blond hair and blue or greys eyes BUT speaking Hakka... WTF? I died laughing at the speaking Hakka part. cause my mum even thinks that other ang mo should know how to speak Hakka like they do. hahahaa... It's like Indian speaking .. erm.. Spanish?

So, if those alleles are dominant while i'm having my child.. haha... 2 chinese came out with a blue eyes and blond hair baby.. Whoa.. my husband sure thinks that i'm having an affair with an ang mo.. hahaha...

therefore. i got no hometown. fuuh..

New Laptop^2

2010-04-20T00:25:00.003+08:00

I got my new laptop. It's from my mum. As she says, I don't know when will your daddy kepala angin only buy for you. i buy first. wait his wind also die.

So, i go one at the KLCC PC fair. then, when i bought back. My dad was like.. Aiyo. this one a. Maybe cannot afford your usage. I buy you another one. This one you temporarily use first. later pass it to your mum.. I was like , ARE YOU SURE? Woohoo... The laptop he chose for 'candidates' were way more better than what my mum choose... hahhah... So... New Laptop Square (i can't type the square symbol..)

-I'm telling you. Don't wish too much from me. You have doubted that I've got a feeling for you. And i did doubted so. but when you're telling me you're hanging out with girls. I felt such relieved ? Any of your words doesn't affects my mood anymore. I seriously knew that, I don't feel a thing for you . Give up kay?

Confirmed

2010-04-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

Yea.. it's confirmed...

SO... I'm moving my ass to UCSI...

AND i notice something.. haha... MY RESULTS!

Yesh a.. its DAMN GOOD! so i can skip the so-called intensive English.

(Bangganya... XD)

AND! I can even skip the bahasa kebangsaan..

(wtf la.. bahasa kebangsaan.. melayu then melayu la..)

In college.. all subject it's talking bout money..

SO! I saved 1k plus? hahas

Dad, mum.. See!! so.. add those in my new laptop budget.. hahahahahah

(mau kena abandon.. lolx...)

-Pc fair lo wei... Tomorrow Tomorrow!!

Kepo

2010-04-09T00:21:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, finally move my ass to school to have a look at those juniors.. hahas.. sorry la... Bang very busy one ... hahahaha...

Junior's performance was a bit of disappointed. Seriously.

Then due to my kepo. I'm having sore throat now. And it caused a big joke in this morning.

I slept kinda late yesterday. hahas. Since i have to wake up at 7 and be at dewan there at 9. i asked for help. Haha.. Morning call.

6.50 am
Phone ringing.

Then i answered the phone unwillingly. (cause i slept at 1am yesterday.. wtf)

hello.. gong yeh..

erm.. auntie or uncle a? I'm morning call-ing Priscilla.

Oo... EI.. WAIT WAIT!! what auntie??!! I'm Priscilla la..

Ui.. your voice hor... walao! hahahahahahah (died laughing.. zzzzz...)

Shut up.. noob... and ended the call while he kept on laughing.. Noob...

hey kids.. I've not giving commands for so long. so.. please la.. Release me and let me go la.. i want my voice one leh...

It's me!

2010-03-19T00:40:00.002+08:00

木乃伊是颇具历史性特殊产物，埃及丶金字塔丶法老王丶复活与诅咒，与木乃伊有关的联想都带有浓厚的神秘色彩。原本安枕不动的木乃伊，在动漫和电影的渲染下，成了沙穴洞窟中伸爪追杀的怪物，为原本神秘的木乃伊增添了些许惊悚色彩。巨蟹座像木乃伊，木乃伊一层又一层的绷带，如同巨蟹座保护周全的盔甲。因为脆弱，所以武装自己；因为不确定，所以嘴硬到不行。严重缺乏安全感加上完美主义，让巨蟹座不到最後关头不轻易亮出示弱。因为脸皮薄，当他们刚开始接触一件新事物，他们会表现得战战兢兢，深怕出错。倔强让他们不轻易发问和求援，也因此得花比常人多几倍的时间吃闷亏。... 巨蟹座像木乃伊，酷酷的外表下其实有着让人意想不到的柔弱。因为柔弱，所以才故意虚张声势；因为怕受伤，所以爱挑剔。巨蟹座刚爱上一个人时，会用放大镜去观察：失约丶说谎丶夸大丶反复无常，都会让巨蟹座在心里判你出局。即使是一个小玩笑，巨蟹座也会当真而伤心。每个巨蟹座都像木乃伊一样，具有自己的故事性。他们念旧丶容易拿过去的回忆来折磨自己和比较现在。在你成为巨蟹座所认可的「信任圈」前，请不要轻易撕扯他的保护罩。因为重隐私的他们一旦被侵犯，可是会像木乃伊一样从沈睡中复活丶反击的！

起初巨蟹的心太清純太易被吹皺，一遇到風，就柔柔緩緩、急急匆匆泛起愛舟。後來，為所愛，自己的心突然間長滿了鬱鬱蔥蔥一望無際的水草，織成一道燦爛輝煌的風景。再後來，或者如此山野爛漫下去，或者無端打開了缺口，奔湧之下，湮滅了所有。巨蟹很少會給傷害自己的人第二次機會，因為他們的心是水做的，而有一個詞叫做，覆水難收。

Luck

2010-03-11T23:53:00.011+08:00

WELL........ Today had proven that I'm still having some luck in my results.. I sorta like my results... Better than what I've expected... ( Maybe my target was low.. isshhh...) hmm... i passed all subjects.. Yesh A!!! And 11 credits.. Hey wait wait.. it doesn't mean i got all Cs kay? It means i don't have D and E.. hahaha...

11 credits .. Proud of what o? hmm... maybe cause my mum and sis was having a bet.. My mum says i won't even get 5 credits.. And my beloved sis says I'll get *muacks*... I can't blame my mum cause my trial results.... Seriously sucks.. when i was trying to explain saying that i haven't start study for it mah... Fuyoh... lagi kena shoot... :OI!! IT'S SEPTEMBER YOU KNOW?? STILL HAVEN'T START STUDY ? SERIOUSLY DON'T NEED TO EXAM HAR YOU? EVERYDAY GOYANG KAKI... TRIAL ALSO ONLINE...

yea ... Parents... Haiz... Neh.. tu Wai meng la... Finally get a chance to see me kena my dad mumble... Luckily he didn't took his results out.. If not.. issshhhh.. stop thinking...

But i seriously felt kinda lucky for getting such result.. hmm.. Because... my cousin who worked hard starting from form 4... get a almost same result as me... Erm... some of them are more worse.. cause there's D and E.. BUT.. i seriously don't mean to show off to her.. Cause mine was last minute work.... PLEASE don't try it... Cause you won't know do you have that luck.... Last minute work out have that result.. it's enough for me...

PLUS!! I GOT A B FOR MY ADD MATHS!!! Woohooo.... well... damn happy cause I'd never passed my add maths since the first monthly test of form 4... Yea... Serious.... That's why i say i got luck man... Luckily got wai meng... and luckily I GOT A B.... i was hoping to pass it only.... Fuuhh... out of my expectation.....

And Chinese was out my expectation too... WELL... according to wei... my Chinese do suck alot... AND... i got an B+... I thought it might only be C something...

Previous Grade System Latest Grade System (2009)
A+
1A A
2A A-
3B B+
4B B
5C C+
6C C
7D D
8E E
9G G

Check it out at wikipedia

p/s: I GOT AN A+.... hahahahahahhahah.......

Out Of Track

2010-03-09T00:56:00.002+08:00

Urgghhh... Waiting seriously kills me. I was figuring why I'm that nervous for this result. Finally i knew why. Cause I'd seriously put effort in it. fuuuhh... First time in my life.

UPSR. I locked myself in room with my school bag AND tidbits that i bought at the grocery shop.. hahaha.. The books are opened on my lap. AND the TV are on too.. hahahaha. So, when my cousin was complaining bout missing the episodes due to study.. hahaha.. i seriously don't dare to tell her i watched it. YUP.. I went exam without studying. fuyoh.. But then i was kinda lucky that time. Yea.. Lucky enough. (Um Gong).

PMR. Yea.. my mouth was kept on mentioning wui.. PMR leh.. Nervous nervous... Yup.. I'd only study for my maths. others.. I'm sorry , I've abandoned your. i studied for my maths cause I FAILED MY MATHS FOR MY WHOLE FORM 3 and at last finally passed at my trial.. AND once again luckily got an A in PMR.. So, it's proven that maths idiot like me also can get an A for maths in PMR.. tao geis.. don't worry. By the way, for tao geis who wanted to enter science stream AND still can't get an A in your maths. Work harder. Maths A is an compulsory to enter.

SPM. I worked hard? hmm.. maybe not enough. I don't know what can i score. I hate unknowns. Where there's unknown , there's fears. If i can score 10A like someone stupid predicted. huh. Then Malaysia might be having a whirlwind. I won't be expecting too much. I can't even sure I'll get an A. ( Why do i sound so damn emo while writing here)maybe I'm still worrying that do i have that luck again to get a better score.....

Aaaa....... Searching for college was the most annoying stuff ... you know what you know what?? I'm gonna do something that's out of track! Yesh a! I'll use 2 years to prepare that out of track stuff. But i still doubt that can i survive in that out of track life?issshhhh. Why the hell am i losing strength to do reckless stuff! aaaaaaaaaa............... i started to think too much..

do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it do it............................
aha.. Ke xiao liao. ignore all this crap.was trying to calm myself down. a slight insomnia.. gonna solve it with cough syrup.. wooooohoooo~~

Death

2010-03-06T01:40:00.005+08:00

well.. seems like it has been announced so...... Buddies! Guys or girls.. Cats or dogs.. Attend my funeral. The details are at below..

Date: 11/3/2010
Time: 0900-1300

Venue: SMKBBSL Foyer

was regretting did not study much . was regretting taking part in so many stuff. was regretting being busy body around. was regretting did not do my home work. was regretting this crap and that crap..

but after those temporary regret... fuuhhh.. luckily i done so much stuff... so i don't have to regret that i've blankly passed my high school!! woohooo~

SPM slip only ma. (Fuck la.. spm oni.. you're staying at Asia kay kid!)

For American

A stands for Awesome

(woohoooo~)

B stands for Better
(You can do better dude!)

C stands for you're slightly regress

(work harder kay?)

D stands for you need more effort

( pay more attention in class kay?)

F stands for Failed

(what do you expect F stands for?)

For Asian

A stands for Average

(if you don't get A that means you're below average~)

B stands for Bad

(you're bad kid !)

C stands for Crap

(totally a bunch of crap! you dishonour our family~)

D stands for Death

(you're parents may have killed you. you're hopeless!)

F stands for F***

(you're parents may have abandoned you . Jerk~)

SO~ obviously you're now at Asia. Plus ! Even you're now at US, it makes no difference. Why? Cause ~ YOU'RE PARENTS ARE ASIAN! NOOB!

That's why i get abandoned by my parents.. hahahahahaha

p/s:arghhh..... waiting seriously kills me......................

Loves one

2010-02-23T00:34:00.003+08:00

Guys! i seriously miss your damn much!

I miss you Lay San!

I miss you Guo Cong!

I miss you Boon Kyan!

I miss you Kar Lok!

I miss you Qi Jie!

I miss you Ai Yee!

I miss you Jing Ruey!

I miss you Kah Hui!

I miss you Kah Yin!

And i miss you too Soo Kit!

There are so many people that i missed. but some of them can't make it . so. since I still haven receive most of the photos . Just gonna share some.

I miss your all!

Lay San! I miss you most.. Haven't see you after the UPSR Prize giving ceremony.

Hey. Lets go paint ball again. Haha.. Team up again a.

I miss you too! You're more quiet than last time..

You're quiet as usual. but then you've involve more in our games.. hahahah love ya..

Some photos were kinda blur.. so i'm waiting others to mail me the photos.

New

2010-02-20T02:34:00.003+08:00

Yup, just wanted something new. wanted yo change my header, my title, my text. or whatever. i wanted to change my link too. but consider bout too many stuff. why grown up should consider so many things. I'm just a half grown up.. damn it.

Still miss the times that I'm sitting at the passenger sit and doesn't have to worry or have a look at the cars on the road. when you're sitting at the passenger sit. you dreamed of driving. when you're able to drive or compulsory driving. you'll dream to sit at the passenger sit. human minds are just too complicated. think too much for what also don't know. worry bout this and that.

when wanted to do something reckless also have to think twice. i just don't like to be that. but I'm turning into. sorta hate myself now. aaa!! what the hell am i moulding myself into. use to dream of being an grown up and talk with qualifications. and now.. i don't even know what i want now. that's why i'm being hot-tempered currently.(more hot-tempered) .

Maybe by changing some sort of stuff will inpire me something? (isshhh dream on.. )

kay. i should shut up and go to sleep. its damn late. 2.45. good morning lo man.

可不可以有一个人…(i like this more)

2010-02-11T20:19:00.001+08:00

可不可以有一个人。
可以看穿我的逞强。
可以保护我的脆弱。
不要在我说「没事啦，你去吧」的时候
就真的会放心的放开我的手然后留我一个人。
不要在我笑笑的不说话的时候
就真的会以为我心里没有觉得疼痛和难过。
不要在我若无其事的忙碌着手头的事的时候
就真的会以为我什么影响都没有受到。

我希望他会在我的眼泪掉下以前
就用大大的手掌捂住我的眼睛。
然后轻声说我的眼睛只有微笑的时候才是最好看。

我希望他会在我面无表情的时候轻轻的用力的搂紧我。
然后说你在我的面前永远都不需要伪装坚强。

我希望他会在我受到委屈的时候把我的脑袋按在他的肩膀上。
然后抚着我的头发说没关系就算所有的人都不相信你你都还有我。

咱要嫁的那个人
不一定要是高高瘦瘦的但是一定要干干净净

咱要嫁的那个人
不一定要会甜言蜜语但是一定要有好的脾气

咱要嫁的那个人
不一定要帅气又多金但是一定要有聪明的头脑和上进心

咱要嫁的那个人
一定会从我们牵手那刻起对我说
从今天起我们有福同享有难我当

咱要嫁的那个人
一定要霸道些他会对我说我认定你了就赖你了
你就是我一个人的我不许别人走近你

咱要嫁的那个人
一定会支持我减肥却依然带我去超市给我买很多好吃的
然后说吃吧不管你多胖我都要你

咱要嫁的那个人
一定会在过马路的时候牵着我的手
对我说要跟我走

咱要嫁的那个人
一定会明白老婆是用来疼的
而且会吹着快乐的口哨和我一起做家务

咱要嫁的那个人
一定会在我生气的时候耐心的哄着
然后逗我说你生气的样子好丑

咱要嫁的那个人
一定会在我哭的时候为我擦眼泪
然后告诉我乖不哭有我在呢

咱要嫁的那个人
一定会在我累的时候伸出手臂很心疼的说抱抱

咱要嫁的那个人
一定会在睡觉前跟我说你要早点睡觉晚安

咱要嫁的那个人
一定会把我带回家对他妈说看这是我给你找的儿媳妇
然后对我说这是咱妈

咱要嫁的那个人
一定会在某一个阳光明媚的日子顶着一片湛蓝的天
笑着对我说我们该有个家了……

没什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下

2010-02-11T20:15:00.001+08:00

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。
他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”
和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。
苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”

你可能觉得难过
　　因为无论你对他怎么好他都不领情
　　他不是看不到他只是装作看不到
　　或者他根本不想看到
　　你觉得自己很喜欢他
　　甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他
　　你用尽全力对他好
　　把他看的比自己还重要
　　有什么事情第一个就想到他
　　联系不到他的时候你担心他担心的快疯了
　　然而你有没有想过
　　这并不在你的责任范围
　　而且很有可能他是在躲着你
　　他受不了你对他那么好

　　不要一直发短信给他
　　不要一直找他
　　你也许只是想找他说说话
　　你觉得那很正常不算苛求
　　但是也许他并不这么想
　　记住你的想法不代表他的想法
　　你是真的不求回报的在喜欢他吗
　　你扪心自问一下
　　你确定不用他回报什么吗
　　那为什么你会难过
　　若是真的一无所求
　　你又怎么会觉得难过呢
　　所以别觉得你那么爱他是伟大的
　　也许她根本不在乎你怎么为他付出
　　有时候你给他的爱或许是种负担
　　这种负担只会让他更加想远离你
　　因为他不想亏欠你
　　别事事为他担心为他张罗
　　你觉得他没有你不行
　　你觉得别人做不到你那么完善
　　但是你要清楚
　　你不是他要的那个人
　　你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做
　　那个位置本来就不是你的
　　你何必硬要挤上去呢

　　你说道理你都懂只是你做不好
　　喜欢他不是你的错
　　想关心他不是你的错
　　控制不住自己不是你的错
　　但是那是你的方式
　　人家不一定就能接受你这种所谓无私的爱
　　所以如果你喜欢他他不喜欢你
　　那么就请你默默的
　　别试图让他知道
　　就算你会难过甚至难过的流泪
　　就请你默默的
　　就算是逼自己也好
　　一定要忍着

　　傻孩子．
　　忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．
　　那些．都已是记忆．
　　缺失并不可怕．
　　可怕的．是无法面对．
　　傻孩子．
　　你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．
　　付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．
　　不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．
　　绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．
　　那里．有你的理想．

　　傻孩子．
　　开始新的习惯吧．
　　习惯．每天一个人生活．
　　习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．
　　习惯．走过熟悉的路．面对熟悉的景．
　　你逃不掉．逃不掉的．
　　那么．就勇敢面对．现实．
　　现实是．一切．画上了句点．

　　傻孩子．
　　勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．
　　这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．
　　这也是你．成长中的你．
　　这个你．正在逐渐死去．
　　新的你．即将重生．
　　找寻你的路．你的未来．
　　你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．
　　做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

　　傻孩子．
　　好．好．尽情发泄吧．
　　剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．
　　泄完了．就要振作．
　　看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．
　　还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．
　　所以．你并不孤独．
　　正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

　　傻孩子．
　　别哭．别再哭．
　　不值得．真的．不值得了．
　　把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．
　　开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．
　　做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

　　傻孩子．
　　生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．
　　别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．
　　你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．
　　现在的生活．不是你想要的．
　　为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．
　　给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

　　现在我对你很好、很好、很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜……
　　当某天，你被伤害，想起我。那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的对你好了……
　　因为那时的我，已经将你放低……
　　原来，放低一个人，最后是被对方逼出来的……

First time

2010-02-11T01:43:00.005+08:00

actually. after i heard what tong said. I'm glad that I've done many first time in my secondary school life. it might not be in sequence.

for the first time i entered a school that i don't even know a person.

for the first time I've been think that I'm a nerd.

for the first time I'm wearing a Malay uniform(baju kurung)

for the first time teacher helped me lied to my mum.

for the first time homework doesn't matters for me.

for the first time I've legally play truant.

for the first time I've use mural.

for the first time I've legally vandalize school property.

for the first time I've been choose as prefect without expectation.

for the first time i knew my first crush likes me too.

for the first time i can hang out with friends without guidance.

for the first time I've get into a relationship.

for the first I've got out a relationship.

for the first time been betrayed.

for the first time had water war at school.

for the first time argue with principal.

for the first time did not enter class for 6 months.

for the first time had a birthday cake from my heng dai.

for the first time illegal driving.

for the first time drank alcohol.

for the first time drunk .

for the first time went camp.

for the first time facing tight disciplines.

for the first time went to watch midnight session movie.

for the first time impressed others.

for the first time been throwed into fishing pond and tank. Plus its during celebrating my birthday.

there are too many first times that i unable to name it out.. too many..

Count down(pwned)

2010-01-10T02:07:00.002+08:00

Before i talk some thing bout count down, gonna really kinda like *** somebody at here.

Hey , miserable kid. Get your ass move back to your own miserable world. don't make me have to suffer your miserable stuff with you. NOOB. PLUS, don't ever think of being my anybody. I DON'T LIKE MISERABLE KIDS! why must you nag me huh! don't you have your own friends? you've stayed in college for the 2nd year AND you yet to get A single friend?!?! **** **** la! you tak faham bahasa punya budak! you and me. NO WAY! what will wait till i like you la or distance is not a problem la. you your own self is a big problem to me dai lou. don't care you study what engineering la. fix your brain first.

bla bla bla.. finish crapping.

kay. bout my count down. after the first time learning car. safely drove myself and Max to my home.(plus i wanna complain bout the steering!! damn tight nia! my bones almost broke to make the finish turning....) then wah lung and mj dropped by to pass stuff and asked me out. (sorry la guys, your last minute la.) so, have to go all the way to shah alam for the count down. It was a normal count down party that's having bbq(yea yea normal...) then uno cards and cards. there was also kinda like having a small really seriously tiny gambling, cause person who lose only have to either finish a pack of drink and lastly finish one of the dishes. people who are having party and don't wish to have dishes left should try on this game .. hahahahahaha... (They all gonna gaining weight for eating so late hahahahaha P/s u din heard this Joyce... hhahahahahaha)

when we finished all the stuff we can play. what should we do? wait the time to pass lo. then we started to argue should count down using who's watches time.(isshh ... my one is the most accurate one la!) Joyce's clock was out off battery one.(how can you let your home's clock out of battery when you know we have to count down!!)so after 30 min of argueing we decided to use yi jun's watch. haiz.. (why don't your choose mine?) it was a totally stupid and wrong decision. when we like very high to count down the last 10 seconds.. Zzzz... no fireworks or anything. THEN, yi jun FINALLY figure out that he baru set the watch fast for 5 min.... Zzzzzz........ seriously kena pawned.......................(See See See! told your to use mine. yi jun's one palia one.)

Ps: If you got any friends call Yi Jun. DON'T USE HIS WATCH TO COUNT DOWN!!

Prom(pwned)

2010-01-08T02:21:00.004+08:00

~My most adorable MJ. hahaha. ignore my face.

Yeeling,the mtured kid. she's pretty too that night. Why didn't she got choosen for the best dressing. kinda pretty wat.

~ the noob drama.. Zzzzz....

Prom is define as girls would be wearing dresses and make up until their mum can't recognize them. and guys will be getting their pocket burn for the formal cloths.

Prom... aikss... conclude. WHOLE NIGHT KENA ZHOU...

at first , i didn't know what the hell is going on with the traffic. the road that's usually jam it's damn smooth and the road that's usually smooth is damn jam. wtf.. so we was like pwned ... urghh... and we was like the last one to reach there.

the first time kena zhou was the drama. yea. the stupid dram. we got the script that we pray for not picking on it. then i have to totally lost my image to beat wah lung on the stage. hahaha... it was feeling weird he did not defend. hahahaha. not use to it. kay kay craps.

then 2nd time was don't know what best dressing one. isshhh. wtf. i got choose for what??!! cause i didn't wear skirts or dress or whatever. still have to do the stupid cat walk???!!! fine. since everybody is entertained by my weird cat walk or whatever.

then 3rd time.. haiz. that's what people call seriously kena zhou. candidate for prom queen??!! wtf. finish entertaining liao first time still not enough. still hav to cat walk again. but my partner was kinda cute. he's an Indian that' knows how to speak chinese from yu hua if not mistaken. he was kinda nervous when he got called out. then we totally got no hmm.. what they call 默契(mak kai) lolx. our cat walk was crap. then some more chicken dance.. OMG.. seriously extremely kena zhou...... BUT. luckily i wasn't the prom queen. hahhahahaha.. blessing in diguise? aiya whatever. cause prom king and queen gonna have a slow dance. (i dont even know how to dance...)

but was still having a nice time seeing friends wearing pretty . and guys finally wearing formal. hahahaha...

i just feel like posting a few noob photos

~LOLX. it's the gents..

~What the hell are you doing goon!

Paint ball(Rox)

2010-01-07T23:19:00.006+08:00

Talking bout histories now. hahaha.. Cause it's 2010 man.

I prefer talk bout paint ball. YEAH PAINT BALL !!

okay, during 15 and 16 of December I'm physically, mentally ,chemically and biologically or whatever unbalanced. WHY? Cause I'm taking that freaking sains pertanian and even people who are taking chinese finished marking their freaking slip with ticks = DONE/BREAKING UP WITH SPM! and friends would start to post stuff or even send stuff to me like this.

' Yay! finished liao lets hang out. XD.'

'no more spm liao '

' Yesh!! free liao!'

'Woohoo can hang out liao!!'

Damn it. isshhh. what can i reply? 'shut the hell up lo.. i'm still having a sub till 16'

they'll start asking ' huh... arts a?' or ' har? wat sub oh?'

when i replied ' sains pertanian' i even got pawned!

'what is sains pertanian?' or ' what do u study bout sains pertanian?'

Aikssss...... so I'm smart enough to not reply the following messages.

Kay I'm seriously out of topic.

So.. i was tagging most of my primary friends on facebook for gathering. They did gave responds that freaking exploded my e-mail inbox. BUT no actual answer. some of them want mid valley, some want leisure mall or times square. some are grounded some are don't know what the heck anymore la. so until 21st of Dec. my dumb pc was down don't know what the heck they've done to him la. so i sms-ed kyan. for your information he's one of my primary friends that has been same class with me for 6 years AND still keep in touch. i suggested paint ball. Great responds. He and i loved paint ball . SO he's the one who inform the others since my pc is hibernating. ( Hey for those who missed out, don't blame me. BLAME HIM!) then bla bla bla . long story and we ended up mixing with wah lung and kean how them making a BIG match with 24 peoples. Yeah . IT'S REALLY A BIG MATCH.

22/12/2009 (Most Historical day)

We went for paint ball at bukit jalil there. Kinda near. Erm. we divided into 2 groups . 12 each. listened to the marshal's lecture. then GAME STARTS.

1st match was mission . so we have to fight for the flags. first we have to shot down the bottles at the opponents site then only we can take the flag. i'll stop bout here cause Lee Wah Lung will be keep on blaming me for losing the first match... issshh....

2nd match its also a mission match. but this time we're taking 2 flags. So what the hell is the difference between 1 and 2. stupid. Yes, stupid . if you're thinking like that. We have to shot down 2 of the bottles at the opponents site. ( yea , lame its the same as first) then take the first flag which is in front of the safe line that exposing yourself to the BULLETS ..(fine. no big deal.) then the 2nd flags its at the opponents base. you heard it( or saw it) ?? IT'S AT THEIR BASE! they'll have to run all along the walk way to reach their base.. woots...Wah lung and Kyan was our pioneer . They RUN over there and KILLED many of them .. hahahahas... GOOD JOB BUDDIES. me and kah yan were the snipers.. hahaha i KILLED kinda many too.. hahahaha (don't believe? ask those who kena my head shot or MOUTH shot one.. hahahaha)

so they were kinda bored with the mission . and we ended up playing death match.. hahahaha..

3rd match was the death match (sounds like Dead math.. hahaha... nvm.. craps..) the rules are who ever got shot= OUT!!! the team who remains most team mates 'alive' is the winner. ONCE AGAIN, KYAN AND WAH LUNG SAVED THE DAY.( ahhhhh.... i crap alot currently) they ran to the pondok at the opponents base which they did not expect they would get back stabbed at there(i mean the opponents) so most of the opponents get died cause of kena back stabbed.. hahahahaha.... how bout our group? our pioneer luckily didn't sacrifice. none of our group member died and FYI all 4 girls are in my group.. hahahaha... yeng dao! IT'S PROVEN THAT GIRLS ARE NOT TROUBLESOME! and if it really counts bout the shot. kah yan kena one~ friendly fire BY WUI YANG .. boys are troublesome now. noob you..

4th match kyan and his cousin and ai yee went out .. so the group was rearranged. wah lung WAS our pioneer. then he went to group up with team A's kean how.( Kean how was the one who shooted our team most!!) darn. two of them together. It's gonna be a long story to talk bout the last match so actually we got draw at the last match.

Tips for people who are joining for paint ball later,

1. Don't ever try and act yeng and wear white pants like LEE WAH LUNG who ended up nobody dare to walk beside him at the mall after the match.

2. dark cloths please. Chee chuen and kean how and Kyan who weared RED.. hahahaaha... obviously they'll be aiming you under the heavy mask..

3.Don't ever afraid of the pain of getting shot by the paint ball. it won't break your ribs or what one la. it'll only get a lil tiny broke of blood vessels.. hahahaha

4. shoot all your bullets . YOU PAID FOR IT.

5. Don't ever think of asking your parents to go with you! try and imagine if you're their opponent. dare to shoot them a? kena whack la when you're home.

-Even you're in the same group with them la. FRIENDLY FIRE jor them dim shiun...

i'm a lazy ass to upload those photos . go and watch it by yourself la.
http://xtionpaintball.com/picturegallery.htm
Our's one is the Mr. Ng and friends.

You guys seriuosly don't know me much...

2009-12-29T21:42:00.002+08:00

Lolx... I made a test on facebook.. following the trend la... since most of them made one... even wai meng.. so...i made one... and~ Nobody score full marks!! Yesh... I'm smart... hahaha

This was the questions i asked...

1) If I was running out of my burning house, what item would I grab?

a) handphone of course i can't live without my phone!
b) computer of course i can't live a day without it!
c) tv of course i can't spend a minute without it!
d) important doc of course my identity depends on it!

#What do you think it is??

2) What am I scared of?

a) GHOST hell no don't ever let me meet'em
b) Lee Wah Lung i'm gonna get beat up by him...
c) Skirts i'll choose death than wearing it!
d) Lizards you damn disgusting creatures..

#Haha... 14 peoples answered my quiz currently AND 10 of them choose the same answer... hahahahaha.... think of what you'll choose.. maybe you're one of them..

3) Would I go bungee jumping?

a) sure! Its damn exciting!
b) hell No.. i'll have heart attack!

#This is damn easy for people who knew me...

4) If I had 1 day left to live, how would I live it?

a) Spend with the loves one of course...
b) Spend with my family of course ...
c) Paintball of course... Paintball for LIFE!!
d) Shopping of course.. Shopping for LIFE!!

#Use your toes to think also know la...

5) Did i couple with Lee Wah Lung before?

a) Yes, and we broke because he bite me!
b) No, heng dai la leh.. how to date?

#Wah Lung since you used me .. and Obviously la...

6) What city was I born in?

a) Malaysia ! Don't ask stupid question!
b) U.S.A ! I'm an US kid kay...
c) India ! Don't i look like an indian?
d) New Zealand ! Goats and cows are my friends..

#Ahahaha.. seriously stupid question.... but there people that's stupid too... wrong jor... hahahah

7) How many boy/girlfriends have I had?(serious relationship)

a) 0 yea.. i haven't date before...
b) 1 I'm loyal kay...
c) 3 average one and a half year one..
d) 5 average one for each year..
e) Why should i tell you when i can't even remember??

#hahas.. yee ling I'm answering your questions now... hahaha

I died laughing in front of my pc when i saw people answering question number 2 especially peoples around me... hahahaha.... yes , i mean you Wai Meng, and you Wah Lung , and you ! Yee Ling

Post By the one who DIED laughing infront of pc...

What the heck!

2009-12-26T23:23:00.002+08:00

BRYAN CHIN! do i have to repeat the same stuff for millions of time ?!! I TOLD YOU I'M NOT HANGING OUT WITH YOU UNTIL MY FRIENDS GO NS!!!

you're freaking getting me extremely on my nerves .. I'm damn tired now. and i don't wanna argue with you on msn. stop bugging me the same question . CAUSE YOU'LL GET THE SAME ANSWER!

you never liked my friends and i don't wanna get complained by you for not entertaining you kay! I'm damn bored of that! what do you think i am? you're pet??!! damn it! the main purpose I'm hanging out is to see my friends. not to entertain YOU ONLY! isshhhh... I'm trying to control myself for not using vulgar words . don't make me break my own promise!

If you scare i would ignore you. THEN DON'T EVER SAID U DON'T MIND JOINING MY FRIENDS!

what language should i talk to you now? huh?you don't seem to understand what i said. and I'm seriously don't like to 'REPORT' what the hell am i doing.

i'm damn sick and tired now and i'm wasting my last breath to scold you here.... urghhh...

P/s: you won't get to reply what i've said. lazy to argue with you.

Tagged by Kjk

2009-12-25T11:47:00.001+08:00

A. 被点到名字的要在自己的博客里写下自己的答案，然后去掉一个你最不喜欢的问题再加上一个你的问题，仍然组成20个问题，传给其他8个人，列出其他8个需要回答问题的人的名字，还要到这8个人的部落格裡留言通知对方——你被点名了，被点名者不得拒绝回答问题，完成游戏的人将会永远得到大家的祝福。
B. 这８个人要在自己的部落格裡註明是从哪裡接到的，并且再传给其他8个人，让游戏继续下去，不得回传。被点到名字的人将会得到大家的祝福，并且所有美好的愿望都会在不久的将来实现。
Tag:
Yee ling
Mj
Qiao En
Xinyun
Yu wei
Kjk(zhou me la)
Bryan chin
Ai yee

Questions:

1.你最希望从朋友(不包括爱人)那里得到的是什麼？
hmm.. i appreciate them for being in my life..

2.最近最郁闷的事？
Issshhh... SPM.....

3.最受不了自己的哪个缺点？
STUBBORN

4.难过的时候会？
abandoned my fon . try not to explode it to innocents.

5.说出点你名的人3个优点
38, nice, cute in action(hahahaha)

6.以一个形容词形容点名的人的外表
五官端正(hahaha)

7.你现在最想做的是什麼？
PAINT BALL MATCH!!!!!

8.用一个字形容自己
smart..*wink*

9.你的梦想？
Paint ball for life.. hahaha

10.现在最希望的事？
have another big paint ball match on jan!!

11.十年以后，你想过什麼样的生活？你打算如何实现呢？
running all over the world. ofcux earn money to fulfill la!

12.接下来最想去旅行的国家或城市？为什么？
hmm... those country or places that r listed gonna disappear in 50 yrs

13. 你为什么要回答这些问题？
cux kena tag la.. uiyo..

14. 怕不怕世界末日？
hmm... curios bout it.. so .. i dun think i'll afraid it..

15.什麼时候觉得孤独？
when sot chor sin..

16.最近一次掉眼泪是？
walau... damn long time ago until dun remember... hahaha

17.想对点你名的人说的话？
Lets go paint ball..

18.家人重要还是伴侣重要？
Family!

19. 选择工作条件？
salary is first priority

19.相信“一见钟情”吗？
nope!

20.在被tag之前，在做些什么？
facebook-ing...

Hate

2009-12-20T00:16:00.002+08:00

Currently i seriously got annoyed by 3 person.

the first one is someone i can't fight face to face... MY DAD... arghhhh.... he kept on pushing me for college. but how can i simply go for college when i don't even know what should i study! Aaaaaa!!! he's my dad ! I CAN'T FIGHT HIM FACE TO FACE! then he wanted me to enter for business -that means art. SO.. i PURPOSELY insist on biotechnology. the qualification is high AND there not many college can offer a good degree for biotech(YESH!!) then they'll request for forecast result which i'm lack of one credit.(YESH!!!!!!!) but the result i didn't do it on purposely la.. so the planning of his January intake was ruin by me.. what i hate bout is he knew that i would be in march and may intake and he still want me to go those college with him to check out STUFFss... Ish... i just hate it! i have to spend time on cars listening to him mumbling bout my result and MY CHOICE. ersh... it just annoying my ears and mind..

the 2nd one is a noob( i can't barely name him as A GUY) that call Nicholas. at first i'm still behaving what my mum taught me.. he seriously annoyed me damn much... the way or style he sms-es people... urghhh...

'Hi'
'how r u?'
'wat r u doin?'

urghh.. who the hell are you! why should i tell you what am i doing all the time! then the 'Hi' what the hell you want me to answer ? ' halo' 4 words and waste my money... ish... then how can i continue to talk with you? urghh.... and the 'how r u?' darn... what can i answer other than 'fine' 4 words again.

THEN, when i don't bother or not free to reply his sms he will send message like this

'haix'
'hey'
'erm'

or even kept on calling saying that you didn't reply his message and he's worry. ewws.... please la.. i'm an grown up ass kay! this is annoying!!!

then YOU noob kia.. the 3rd one.... u seriously tak faham bahasa inggeris kah? told you i wanna hang out with my other friends first can't you understand? i can't be booked okay? I'm not goods! ish... Just hate to repeat talking bout the same thing to you and u seems like understand . but actually u don't.. arghhh.. i don't wanna be harsh to you.. so zap sang la.. don't make me be that harsh to you AND i know how to solve my problem BY MYSELF!

Minds

2009-12-09T18:37:00.002+08:00

For a few thousand years i haven't read people's blog. Since today I'm not having exam or anything, so i went through kinda many people's blog. then have some thoughts bout people's mind.

A young girl may have deeper thoughts than elder. they can do stuffs to get what they want. attentions, money , friends and even love. i don't feel like mentioning their name.

It's kinda bored to see boys fighting over for girls . vice verse. relationship doesn't stay long kay? do you think it's worth to give out all the things when he doesn't even bother to know? don't be silly. he has no responsibility for it. you choose to give it all is he can say.. Since he din ask it then don't ever think of giving him. I'm not talking all bout secks. it's bout time , tears and heartache.

When he ask for break up , tell him fine, as you wish. then turn away. Don't ever let him see you crying and don't ever think of letting him know you're heart aching for him. If he really loves you, he won't even give you a chance to shed a tears for him. Even after you're married, don't give it all. in this world there's something call 'divorce'. you may choose the wrong husband for once. then what you gonna do? stay with him for your whole life? or choose another one?

this is not only for girls. guys too. Character always change. today girls may be the victim of a bad relationship, tomorrow maybe guys. so, be wise and protect yourself.

I didn't mean that all relationship are like this or having phobia on relationship. it's just some thought of mine since xxxx . and till i saw that few blog then just wanted to express my thought bout that.

p/s: Lyl, when you saw this post. think bout it kay?

In a relationship?

2009-12-09T18:19:00.003+08:00

I finally adopted back my blog after a few century. i even have to search for my link from other people's blog. Fine, done with all those craps.. i would wanna mention bout the post i posted lately on Facebook ' Priscilla is officially coupled!

'Deng!!' officially coupled doesn't mean it really have to be human kay.. i receive comments n sms-es asking

'with who?'

'hey, who's that guy?'

'Wow, in a relationship again?'

'lolx.. gratz let me noe who is it'

etc.etc..

NOW i wanna make it clear at here.. I'm officially coupled with chemistry! Yes! it's chemistry! I love chemistry n he loves me...

why don't i post it on facebook? CAUSE I DON'T WANNA RECIEVE NOTIFICATIONS!

people that's still contantly checking on my abandoned blog, kindly pass this message to those who are curious.

tell them like this if they ask. ' Why must be human? She choosed an unusual stuff to be in relationship with her . like she always do.'

and seriously i'm single but not available . not cause of having someone or what. it's just. i'm bored of getting into relationship?(If i post this on my other networking acc, my friend request will drop way down the mountain.)

BTW... i'm almost over my spm..

means what?

IT MEANS Who wanna go out and 'wet' one. Kindly gimme a call or sms or nudge me at msn ... i might be available.. hahahahaha....

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2009-07-19T16:35:00.007+08:00

from wei...

from wei too

from mj...

from mj too

the whole giant card

my birthday cake

the imba present

yea la yea la.. i will study la.. noob kia...

was expecting sumthing?

har.. not you too lo...

lolx... thats the reason you measure my hand a... haha... ngong de..

suprisingly u reli bought it...

haha.. zha dao lo...

............

leng lui... u two discuss d one a?

haha.. girl stuff lo.. u reli lebih one o..

omg... u oso lo.. girl stuff......

yea.. the so thought 'biology book'

from the juniors...(my mazai)

i........... speechless

nice wrapping

n a card too...